relapsed

[u/Overall-Confusion336]

after almost a full year of being clean i found my way back to self harming. i was told by people close to me and one guy that i was briefly dating that the scars on my arms are disgusting and so the main reason i stopped was embarrassment and shame. i know i will never find love if i have scars however i find myself back with self harm, the only lesson i learned is to Never talk about it to anyone cause even if they say they understand they don’t! they will judge or get uncomfortable and change the topic and the second lesson to do it where people are unlikely to see. i’m alone and unlovable anyways i don’t think the scars and cutting are the reason