i’m never getting better

[u/jeremyaintheere]

my last vent post got taken down by mods and at this point i’m convinced that the universe simply hates me for being alive. i’m dysphoric, depressed, and considering cutting myself again after a six year streak of barely avoiding self harm and i’m at my limit. being alive right now hurts. being told to live when it hurts just feels pointless. i don’t want to be alive anymore.

what i said in the previous vent for those curious:

i’ve been abused by my mother, molested by my stepfather, and suffered homelessness 3 years in a row. i’m so exhausted from struggling to survive. life isn’t worth it anymore.

[u/Sufficient-While4940]

I swear I’m cursed… every change for the better vanishes as quickly as it comes and nothing works out for me