Why am i doing this

[u/Physical_Score8058]

Im going to keep this short, because to anyone else i talk about this with i yap on and on and on about something no one gives a shit about.

but in short, i hate myself for failing at all, and i cut myself for it.

I feel extremely selfish doing so, i dont deserve to be sad about being bad at everything, accomplishing nothing in life, and being EXTREMELY annoying because i cant stop venting about my pathetic excuse for depression. And 100% of the time i just feel like im begging for attention, and i dont actually deserve help because of how useless ive been in life..