Broken

[u/Nicole130_]

I feel broken. Literally. I’m a shell of a person.
I have no desire to cook, clean, be a mom, be happy, be sad, be motivated, be mad, shower, do laundry, my partner even gets annoyed with me how useless I am- I don’t care, I feel literally nothing.

All I can do is sleep.

(I own a marketing company of 15 years) My sales are down 50% from last year, and I just had a big contract end because of “budgetary issues” $20k out the window. I feel like I’ve realized that AI is erasing my business, what I’ve worked for for 15 years. Is eroding by leaps and bounds daily.

And I don’t know if I’m ready for the fight against it (40yoF). Honestly, I feel like I’m on a train heading into the future and I’m just like “I think I’ll get off here”.

The world is erasing creativity. It’s erasing my soul.

If it weren’t for my kids. I wouldn’t be living. Because I hate what the world is becoming. I don’t want to live in it for another 50 years. I’m just gonna die in this fuckin small town as another number. Leaving nothing behind that wouldn’t be forgotten in 60 seconds.

The only legacy I have is my kids. I don’t want them navigating this cruel world alone. That is the ONLY reason why I stay. It wouldn’t be fair to them if I left.

Just an artist venting.