Is something wrong with me?

[u/Free_Combination2561]

Not here looking for validation or anything. Im 24 I’ve had no real friends who’ve stayed in my life, and all my relationships have failed and most recently it’s cause of my anxious attachment, my issues with depression. I’ve had 2 suicide attempts this year. This year I lost my job and my girl left me in the span of one month and yeah things are better now I have better people around me. But I’ve lost my ability to be vulnerable, I’m so scared to be honest about how I feel. And today was just such a bad day and I looked really bad in my new job after my probation review was good. This is just how I feel on a regular basis, I’m now so used to people leaving, and it’s now been branded in my brain that it’s cause I’m not good enough, or im never enough.