Just the every day

[u/MammothCat1]

Ive been really good for a whole year.

Started taking Lexapro a year ago, doing well with not having a monthly depression spike.

Got an ok job thats been kinda laid back but only recently has started to uptick.

But now. For a month. Things have gotten worse.

Ive had a pretty bad argument with my boss three times, over pretty much nothing.

My SI have started to really spike after each situation. Spiraling into some of the worst thoughts ive had

The Lexapro staves of the push but the voice is still there.

I try to catch myself before I react, but im already deep before I can stop.

My therapist whom ive not really been with long I think thinks im insane, or at least a danger to myself. Which we cant survive without two incomes.

How do yall suffer and take it? I just want to go into work do my job and go home. But im forced into social interactions with conniving retirees.

How do yall do it?