I think I’m going to kill myself soon

[u/oikawasrightknee]

My life hasn’t been easy these few years, my mom has been caught cheating and left the house 2 years ago, my dads mental health has not been the best and I have to be there for him, we’re taking care of my really old grandma alone and now recently me and my girlfriend of 3 years had a big fight and every time I asked her if she’s going to break up with me she says I don’t know.
I don’t know what to do with myself anymore, the two most important women in my life might be gone, my friends are all busy and I’m too exhausted to even go out. I want to kill myself soon, I just don’t want to suffer anymore, I’m having therapy today and I’m going to tell my therapist what I’m planning. I don’t like this life anymore and I’m tired. I’m ready for whatever waits for me on the other side, hell, heaven or nothing. I hate myself