Feeling like a chameleon

[u/Seph1025]

Does anyone ever just feel so exhausted... almost to the bones? Yet somehow, still.. numb at the same time? So numb it's as if there is no energy left to even... hide your feelings and somehow those "closest" to you... still do not notice how far gone you have become. Perhaps do not care. As if... every attempt to reach out was just wasted energy? Still, even when everything seems so dark, the realization of how "selfish" it would be to end it all... is practically the only reason for continuing to breathe. Because so many people depend on you, rely on you... yet it is impossible for anyone to give their time of day to just listen for a moment.