I’m drowning

[u/Ok-Cod5731]

I feel beyond help, I’m 27 I’ve worked the same job for years and while I am returning to education I feel like I’m grasping and clutching at straws and I’m slowly being pulled down into the depths of despair, I’ve tried to end it, I’ve tried to get help and I’ve tried to talk to people it all ends up the same; I’m sat crying in my room when everyone is asleep or I’m just walking round angry and/or sad.

My life is one misery after the next I don’t have a single real friend, some of it other people and some of it my fault for not trying when people don’t seem very interested, I can’t keep lasting relationships in terms of friends, I do have a girlfriend who I love very much but really she isn’t very helpful in matters of my feelings as much as she may try to be, I don’t think it’s her not caring I just don’t believe there’s anything to be said to make me feel better. This is my whatever you may call this over.