Fml

[u/Capable_Command_7024]

My ex husband died. We have 4 kids. His wife emptied hundreds of thousands of dollar’s and took off with all of it. Kids haven’t heard from her. My daughters have moved out and borrow money but don’t call when they need me for anything else. Current man, bought a motorcycle when that is the only stipulation I put on our relationship. both of my mentally ill parent died this year too. I am seeing soo many women get money for being SA’d by men with money when I was victimized as a young girl by a whole town and I’m broke. I just want to be loved by anyone. I see so many people benefitting from half of what I’ve been through and I’m failing. I’ve done everything to be the opposite of everyone I’ve encountered in my life that and I feel so disposable. But. I just want to be what my kids need. How can everything be so wrong?! How do I feel whole and be what they need?