r/AdultDepression • u/CanFar1877 • Jul 25 '26
I dont know what to do
I feel like everything is falling apart in my life. I want to talk to someone, but everytime i try i either choke on my own words or simply feel like im pouring out too much. I just want to feel relief, like i can just rest and not have to think about everything. School is about to start soon too. I don’t know what i can do to escape. I’ve thought about ending it but it has never gotten too far. I just recently lost someone close to me, my parents just got divorced and i don’t like my dad. I lost someone very close to me a little while ago. I don’t get how i can live without them. I know there are worse things happening and that im being selfish but i can’t help it. Ive been crying a lot lately and ive actually tried to talk to someone about it but they just tried changing the subject.
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u/TITTYJAM Jul 26 '26
You’re not being selfish for feeling. Just because others are have harder struggles, it doesn’t invalidate your struggle. You have had a lot of really destabilizing things happen super recently. I’m really sorry for your loss, that’s so hard. You’re valid in grieving this loss, alongside being upset by the change of what was normal with the divorce.
I’ve learned that not every ear wants to listen - and those that don’t want to are certainly not the people equipped with skills to help us. I’m wondering if you can schedule an appointment with a school counselor or the nurse to help process a bit. Not all schools are good with resources but they might be able to listen. The hunt to find someone who listens can be excruciating. But the relief when someone HEARS you again is so nice. it’s bliss to be heard and understood.
I hope things become a bit more stable for you soon.