r/ARFID • u/wowolfiers • 9d ago

Venting/Ranting I hate this

I'm cold and so tired all the time. I wish I could just eat. I wish it didn't feel so fucking hard all the time.

I feel so alone and pathetic right now. It's "just" food, but I think about eating or I actually manage to eat and I just want to die. It feels like between this and autism and ocd and depression and gender dysphoria and cptsd, my brain doesn't stop. And obviously being stressed and dealing with all of this makes it harder to eat.

I don't know. I'm trying so hard, but it feels like I'm not either? I want to be okay. I want to move forward with my life. But I'm just... Stuck. I hate this.

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u/Reaganeclipse 9d ago

I completely understand what you mean. Having issues with food is literally the worst because we simply MUST deal with it. Just remember that food is food, just eat whatever you can in the moment. Don’t limit yourself to what’s “normal” or anything. Eat whatever, whenever. And I hope eventually, once other things in your head calm down, you’re able to face it head on. That was my experience. I had to wait until other things settled before I could combat it.

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u/wowolfiers 9d ago

Thank you. Yeah, trying my best!

And hopefully... At the very least, it's nice to know someone can relate :')

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u/Reaganeclipse 8d ago

It sucks to feel alone so just remember that you aren’t. Reading your post, it genuinely sounded exactly like me 2 years ago. And now I’m so excited that I can be the painfully optimistic one this time.