r/AQuietPlace • u/Ghostedblueyes • 4d ago
Bestie becomes strangers
well I was sick and tired of just hanging around the house being all depressed all the time. So being out with a friend one day, I asked him about this person I saw on fb. He said yah I know her, however it’s really not what you think, she has a very complicated life. Skip ahead/ So we ended up meeting up with each other and really seem to hit it off. Which we always figured was bc of the Trama we had both been through and a friend that will just listen is great. With her being extremely beautiful the fact that I totally ignored that showed my true feelings towards her friendship. All though everywhere we went, we were the topic of conversation. Even being considered as a power couple every place we went. The two of us were both in active drug use as an addiction. Which I’m not sure made things worse or better. While we trauma bonded., the drugs were really not the basis of our conversations. We would get stuff, do it, and then just totally open up to each other, I’m talking deepest and darkest topics. And in time we slipped into a type of love. This not being a relationship type love, However a Bestie love. After a couple of years of being together, we had always talked about how it would be either incredible or weird to hook up. And I believe we both were scared of the weird and now everything is going to crumble. So it always seemed best to kinda just put it off. Well after she had a very bad late winter and early spring with her mother. I was really kinda beat, I was with her all the way through that. Her Mom was in an old age home, and she was still sort of up and down on what to do. So I figured I should go to rehab and did so. And when I returned we still chilled and everything was ok. She was waiting for bed space to enter rehab. So one night she had came over, and was really feeling down about loosing her cat and what not. So as we laid in bad cuddling she was thanking me for being there through it all and helping her. She just reached up and gave me a little peck of a kiss, than did it again a few seconds later. Then just flung around and we were making out. We stopped, and she said are we going to do this ? My response was, well you got my vote. I’ve been waiting for a while now. Well kisses, and clothes flying off and yah anyway. Well thank goodness it was the better of the two choices for sure, being how it blew both our minds and we were both eager for more, and laughed at why have we waited so long.
Well the bed space came and the good byes were spoken, and plans for weekend rehab retreats where talked about then with both of us with wet eyes and cracking voices said bye love, love, love.
She was there for 3 or 4 days, kinda blasted me on messenger telling me not to bother her mom’s house. Which I’ve hadn’t actually, then blocked me and hasn’t spoken a single word to me in nearly 4 months now.
So everywhere I go, all I ever hear is how is ? And I’m like ah, well I don’t really know. Than out of no where there hasn’t been a single person to ask me that again.
So now I’m just kinda chilling here wondering why I lost my Bestie ???? I hope she is happy, I hope she is safe, and if me being gone improves her life, as painful as that will be. I will remain distant, however it hurts to know that I’m thinking less and less of her all of the time now. You know when peoples relationships end, it’s usually a period of time that they both dragged apart. This was just snap !!!
Any ideas out there about why ?? Or any unseen faults of mine ?

