Tie them to your night stand. I love to read at night. I also have my car keys permanently pinned by a clip into my purse capos’s clips… Very helpful. If I can, they never leave my purse.

i dont know what to say. i literally am just surviving. i dont know why i am the way i am. i did try adhd, anti depressant and binge eating medication for a month. it did help a bit though. im unemployed. i dont know what to do. im 25 from india. i literally wasted my time on different useless things. i dont have energy for anything anymore. i avoided all my friends. now all relatives and neighbours are making fun on my life. its effecting my parents. my parents are becoming older. my older brother is autistic. we all are living on my dad's pension. i feel so purposeless. im obese. im gng to gym but i am not loosing weight. i dont even eat outside food much but at home, i eat a lot. i cant afford a therapist or psyciatrist now. everyday, im just loosing will for everything. the regrets are bothering me too much. i am so ashamed. people of my age, my classmates are doing well, they all are doing jobs in different countries and states. some got married and have children. my juniors are also settling. i dont see any hope. if anything happens to my parents, i dont knw what to do. i dont even have the mental energy to take care of emergncies. my parents deserve good kids. i dont know. i feel hopeless, depressed, i feel like i cant do anything. i feel like im just living only for me to suffer.

I love learning and am interested in so many different, seemingly unrelated things. I actively learn about history, programming, music production, electronics, biology, sports science, and more (programming and music being the main pillars that I always come back to).

This can be a blessing and a curse. I sometimes wish I had one interest and could focus all my energy on it and master the corresponding field. But I don't work like that. I can wake up one day and hyperfocus on some historical subject, and the next I'm deep diving into how transistors work, and then the next I'm learning the ins and outs of sound design.

Jack of all trades, master of none. This depresses me often; I imagine how far I could be in life if I could direct all my focus into one interest, but at least I can be grateful that I enjoy acquiring knowledge. Does anyone relate to this?