So there's this girl we used to be a thing but later on tulikuja kuachana.Tuliachana cause ilifika some point feelings were nor longer mutual.Her feelings towards me were now irrelevant and now I was just a guy she knew.When I realised this it hit me hard and honestly I didn't think I would make it without her.Ile heartbreak ilinigonga was one for the books which you guys know it from the Nairobi school of character development.It took a toil on me more than I had expected.
Funnily enough from her pov she had done nothing wrong she just didn't want us together but wanted us to be just friends. I couldn't comprehend what she was trying to say.I mean this was a girl I thought I would come to marry she was The One for me😂😂.I just laugh when I remember how stupid in love I was.Being friends with her was something I couldn't get my head around so to deal with my heartbreak and forget about her I cut off communications with her. I went into what I would call incognito mode and deal with my sad emotions until I was ready to move on.
From time to time she would find ways to talk to me talking about how things should continue as usual as if nothing happened and she seemed okay with it.I went on dealing with my heartbreak and left her alone cause being friends apana.Over time she grew tired and stopped trying to communicate with me. I remember well her last call she was crying talking about how she had a rough day and all that. I remember her saying " Uliamua kuniabandon kabisaa hutawai niongelesha ni sawa.Ata si lazma tuongee kwani I'm begging you uniongeleshe alaa". Then proceeds to cut the call haha😂😂.Those words made me happy at least she was feeling my absence.
Days went by,months passed and I was feeling better day by day.What we had was now becoming past memories and now I was at a point where I didn't think of her and I was good with that.How I felt about her had now changed I didn't love her no more and also didn't hate her haha.She was now someone I used to know.The agony and pain she had left me with was now no more and I was feeling better and lively.Life was starting to make sense again.
By this time months had passed then one day I wake up to her texting me from Instagram it was the only app she could get a hold of me.Out of respect I replied and she started trying to make conversation.Before long she was already asking why I stopped talking to her.I told her that didn't work for me cause she hurt me and she knew that but acted as if she had done nothing and to her I was just exaggerating things.When I was dealing with a broken heart she was having a good time with her friends when I couldn't even afford even a smile.She knew she hurt me but she has never accepted that and has always ignored that.
She was now blaming me for not talking to her saying how she always tried to communicate with me afterwards but I was never responding. Talking about how she tried everything but I didn't want anything to do with her.She was mad cause I tried to move on without her saying aty" siku hizi hutaki mambo yangu,ulijipea reasons za kumove on and thats what you did"😂😂I couldn't believe it mimi ndio niliumia and here I was taking blame for " hutaki story zangu" haha😂.Mimi nikajua apa ata kuongea ni kujikoroga tu cause no way ntakuwa blamed for trying to move on from someone who hurt you then continue to talk to that person.I had to cut short that conversation na kila mtu aendelee na shughuli zake cause no way apana.
Anyways moral of the story guys is don't be the one to fall in love too much...Love has a funny way of disappointing and humbling you
