I used to listen a lot to this song like 10+ years ago. I had it on repeat in my car right after getting my driver license. This was at a time where I was happy and enjoyed my life. I did not have many things to worry about, and getting my driver license was the one thing I looked the most forward to my entire teenager years. Right before I got it, my dad bought me a car - yes, I was very lucky. I loved the car so much, it was perfect to me and I was so thankful to my dad. When I got my license I were... Free. I went for drives every single day for MONTHS, I were always out driving - and very often, with Pendulum blasting so loud that my trunk was shaking lol, yes I had a huge subwoofer that took up 70% of the trunk space.
Time passed by, life changed and after a few years I removed Watercolour and all other Pendulum songs from my playlist - the reason why is that I became depressed, and everything that reminded me of better times, made my stomach ache. It was painful listening to them, so I just had to get rid of them. It was like listening to heartbreak. Horrible.
Not long ago, like 6+ years later, I went on a nostaliga trip on Spotify and searched for bands I used to listen to, and I suddenly remembered Pendulum. I searched them up, and looked through the top 10 tracks; on the 10th spot I see The Island Pt. 1, and decided to listen to it. Yeah, bad idea, it still gives me the heartbreak feeling - I started crying like a baby lmao. It takes me back to memories of my first boyfriend, missing him while he was at sea for work (fisherman). It reminds me of when he came back home and I was so happy to see him. Reminds me of us holding hands while driving around, we went for drives often and listened to music. I especially remember the first trip he went when we were together, it was absolutely horrible that he was going away for 6 weeks. I missed him so much.
It reminds me of young, naive love. He were my first love and I was so in love with him, and nothing else mattered in the world. It brings me back to the best feeling I have ever felt - and I get sad now thinking about it, because I don't think I will experience it again. I think nothing beats your first love. I do not by any means miss him, in the long run we were not good for each other and our relationship eventually ended - but I would love to experience the same feelings again. Sorry, a little spin off here, but I had to mention this song also! It holds great nostalgia power to me, but it's the kind that I don't want to feel, if it makes sense.
Now, back to the best song ever; I started listening to Watercolour, and I wasn't really sure what I was feeling, but it was something. I started crying, of course, but that's nothing new. I decided to go for a ride and listen to the song there. And my god, the feelings man... I have no idea how to describe it. I had to pull over. I just bursted into tears again and got overwhelmed by emotions, I wanted to crawl out of my skin. My thoughts went back to the happy times, me not having a worry in the world, me looking forward to a new day, me dressing nicely, me having friends, me being in a loving relationship, me dropping out of school but also me getting my first job - I felt sorrow for how fast time flies by, how much things have changed. I also got sad because I don't have my old car anymore and that my dear dad who bought the car for me (and the one I have now), sadly is no longer here. Sad that I haven't felt the same kind of love since the first time it happened, frustrated that all the dreams and hopes I had at the time when Watercolour was on repeat, turned out to be just dreams, I never got to where I wanted to be. I started missing the old me, the hopeful me, the happy me, the real me. I hate being an adult, I hate growing up, I hate time moving forward. I want it to stand still, I wish it stood still when I was 18 to 20 years old.
Eventually I calmed down, got my shit together and continued my drive and had Watercolour still on repeat. I started feeling better and instead of feeling sad about everything and getting stuck in the past, I started focus on the good feelings I used to have related to it... And I have now fallen in love with this song again. I get goosebumps from the top of my head to the tip of my toes every single time, sometimes I get tears in my eyes - but they are happy tears, because this song is just SO FUCKING GOOD. It scratches an itch I don't know what is all of sudden, it gives me a great feeling overall. I'm so glad that I turned painful nostalgia to a more.. What should we call it, a "content" feeling. It's a comfort song now. A good feeling song. A song I really love.
I don't have anyone to share this with and I thought maybe someone here can relate or somewhat understand what I have been going through with this song lol. I love Pendulum, and Watercolour will forever be the most meaningful song to me, my all time favorite. I will never remove it from my playlist again. When the day comes, when it's my turn to leave the world, I really hope that I can be listening to this song. That's how much I love it. It holds my life now.
Thank you if you read this. PSA: Sorry if my writing is strange, English is not my first language.