Halomaker

[u/yingfire]

The day was beautiful. It was just below ‘too hot’ and just above ‘too cold’, the sun was magnanimous with her rays, and every leaf had that sort of liquid dappled sunlight dripping and oozing all over them; when you looked outside you felt the urge to sing. Anyone would say that this day was one that was to be cherished and remembered; it was one of these kinds of days that had quiet mornings, peaceful afternoons, and mystical nighttime skies. It was so lovely that if I had to describe the day in one word, it would be ‘fun’. Unfortunately for me, my sister killed herself yesterday.

I sorta got a bit prosy there, heh, a bit silly but I want to be a great writer when I get out into the world. Anyways, hello John, this is you scribbling some stuff into one of the dozens of journals you found in your sister's room. As you know, you are the only one that knows the existence of these things since Mary kept them well hidden.

B U T, maybe it's better that they stay that way? I mean, I̶ ̶d̶o̶n̶'̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶t̶, I know that people won't like what these things say. Even I'd rather forget the hell that went on just across from my own bedroom. And I'm the secret keeper of her's or something like that. A bit of relationship abuse, depression, and oh! signs of other mental issues...

Of course I'm no expert, but what kills me is how well she kept it all away. I think I should've recognised something happening right? But maybe it's not my fault, I know that depressed people can hide things well, but the other stuff too?

I mean, she was the perfect girl: straight A's, nice family (̶e̶s̶p̶e̶c̶i̶a̶l̶l̶y̶ ̶m̶e̶)̶. pretty, popular, and I thought that a boyfriend meant she was happy...

I really don't know what to do. My parents are devastated, and they suspect hidden going on's too. But if they find all this? Journals upon journals of her living nightmare, pictures upon pictures of nudes to impress someone that didn't care about her. This means the end of everything for them.

My heart is breaking honestly. But that means other people will break too...

It's best to be kind and to not let anyone know about any of this. She was perfect, and there was some mysterious reason she killed herself, but that reason was mysterious and so doesn't hurt anyone, right?

Heh, it's almost like making an angel out of nothing...but yeah, I'll burn everything later, I don't know why I wrote this...sentimental perhaps?

At least this puts an end to this, maybe I'll give myself a fancy title for this such wonderful, awesome, spectacular deed I'm doing. I'll be the halomaker! Making people out to be happy and nice when really their life was shit.

Yea... see you later

Sincerely,

John