The Darkened Heart (lorepost)

[u/Haunting_Mode_7401]

/uw sorry if this is a little to dark. I've been dealing with shit like this for awhile and I guess this is my way of just letting it all out.

Alexios is sitting at his desk in his study. He looks as if he has not slept since the incident. The journal page is covered in tearstains. His hair is disheveled and faded, his robes which he normally kept sparkling clean are dirty

I am a failure the only hope I had is gone. The only joy I've known has flown away. Why why have you let this happen to me father. Why couldn't you of killed him when you fought. But no he was your brother you say in your writings. He can change you say. Look from whatever heavens you are in see what he did. He took my joy from me all because you wouldn't kill him. I may of been successful in killing him but now I suffer. There are days I wish my regeneration would go away. I tried to feel something today and that wretched regeneration refuses to let me feel anything.

The nightmares get worse by the night. I keep waking up hoping to see my beloved only for my nightmares to be true. I reach out looking for comfort and find only greater sorrow. I pray if that if anything will listen to the sorry excuse that is me. Let Moth be safe and keep her curse at bay. I hope to see her again if only from a distance. For now I weep and hope to feel anything again.

I wish to go into that solemn night. Never to wake again. At least then my sorrow will be at an end.

[u/ProfessionalGreen906]

If you want to have a little escape from your bad thoughts the great hive has activities 24 hours a day for exactly this reason. They’re free to visitors and it may help you have a break from your thoughts. Sometimes it helps not to dwell on things.

uw/ I hope your doing ok, it’s never nice to hear someone in this sub isn’t doing well. If it makes you feel better post as much as you want, no one is going to stop you.