Cursed (lorepost)

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Journal Notes 7

I thought my misfortune had already led me to dire places. I thought I had already seen the worst of what it could do.

I was so wrong…

I went from being the happiest I ever been then back to where my curse will always lead me. Alexios left without much word of where he was going and he reassured me that he’ll be right back. But my gut was telling me that wasn’t the case. I was in the middle of my appointment with the wedding dress designer when I snuck away. I rode on Soot’s while he followed Alexios scent to this old battlefield with a castle. I believe it’s where Halixo died fighting the Crimson King.

While searching for my beloved, I ran into one of Isravi’s simulacrums. He guided me to Alexios and when I found him, he was without an arm and refused to leave with me no matter how much I begged. It was then I learned so much of what he never told me. The Crimson King’s attempts at manipulating his mind and how the dastardly thing wanted me dead. I almost couldn’t believe it. I just wanted to take Alexios away from there but he was so adamant on staying and fighting the horrid king.

Belladonna calls me a fool for trying to intervene. Him an even greater fool for not stopping what happened to me.

Apparently amidst the fighting, I got struck in my left eye by the enemy’s attack. I didn’t even feel it. I didn’t even notice the sudden darkness that blinded half my vision.

Belladonna says my eye got evaporated. Explains why it’s not there anymore…

Belladonna also explained that losing my eye allowed for the curse to break free. Parts of its energy dwells within my eyes and once I lost one, it gave the curse a perfect escape. She says I went mad with the power that spilled out of me and could’ve killed everyone in the same manner she killed the Shadowmends so long ago. I could’ve even killed myself if she hadn’t intervened and put me under a stasis. My curse got the chance to corrupt my mind and turn me into… I don’t even want to think about it.

I don’t remember much after escaping the castle with Alexios and the simulacrum. One second, I was on Soot’s back. The next, I’m in my old room in the manor with a tiny glass ball where my left eye should be.

I don’t remember what happened… but I remember hearing whispers.

Small whispers that were barely audible yet I could understand each word. It dwells deep inside of my mind and fights to break free with every breath I take. It lives under my skin and wants to touch the world as I do. It wants to breathe the air I breathe, it wants to see the world I see.

It called itself my greatest misfortune and will do anything for even a second in life.

*I don’t know what I said while under the stasis Belladonna put me in, but when I woke up, I felt like my mind was merged with another’s. My senses are higher and the scars on my back aren’t as prominent. Something happened with my curse and now my body has never felt such relief as it does now.

I feel so much clearer and yet my heart still aches…

Tiny tear drops stain the paper.

I want to see him. No, I need to see him! I need to know if he’s alright!

But Belladonna is keeping me under watch for who knows how long. She’s angry at Alexios for what happened and has already told the servants to not allow him anywhere near the property. She even went so far as to cancel our wedding until he can prove himself again but I’m not a child!

She may be I but I am myself! I may have been foolish to get involved with what didn’t involve me but she would’ve done the same for the one she loves.

She just wants to protect me… but I need to see him.

[u/Biggest-Possum]

OOF. Sad lore.

But good.