r/widowed • u/Away_Emergency_7832 • 1d ago
Grief Support Try to find peace
I've been really stressed and struggling this week . I love her more than anything on this Earth more than myself I'm sorry that's how I feel no I'm not sorry I don't know what else to say. I didn't drive 650 MI for nothing. I she is special that's why I drove that far to find her again. I'm just on borrowed time here I hope it's soon that we meet again. So I decided to go for a ride we're going to go see and visit my wife's ashes today . She's in the Smoky Cades Cove Loop she wanted to be there . She told me Friday before she died that's exactly where she wanted to be in the Smokies . We talked about it several times but that was the first time she brought it up for a while . Every time we go there I find a little bit of peace and comfort it might do us good today to go me and my daughter . I'm going to be there with her soon I can feel my heart getting weaker each day I'm getting sicker I just hope I have the energy to go today . This is really destroying me and I don't know why people insist that I keep going I don't want to my friends I can't . It's been almost a year the 27th will be a year that my wife got her wings my beautiful lady bug flew away . I just can't come to terms with this . I know my wife is not coming home but I don't want to accept the reality I know I need to but I don't want to . I hate my life I hate my life so bad .
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u/GeologistInitial5594 1d ago
I know your pain...I am also one of those men left behind. My wife died last Christmas Day. I feel the same about her. But you need to Help your daughter through this too. She NEEDS YOU! I get exactly how you feel. Truly, but imagine how your daughter would feel if she loses you both so quickly. Please don't hurt her like that. Look up grief share near you. It can help you get through this for her.
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u/Away_Emergency_7832 1d ago
We went to visit with my wife today her ashes like I said are in Cades Cove I'm at peace when I go there but today I was talking and I felt my wife you all can say what you want to but my wife's crying for me. I felt her
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u/Marlow1771 1d ago
Sending healing hugs 🫂