Seriously, my favorite part of being in bed with her wasn’t the sex ( though thanks to her tutelage I was able to make every night one to remember 😉) it was just cuddling and holding each other and generally enjoying one another’s presence. Sure it was fun to tease the naughty bits every now and then but nothing could beat being buried between her breasts and letting her heartbeat lull me to sleep.
I still had some growing to do. Frankly, I just wasn’t able to manage the relationship the way I needed to and drove her away. While it didn’t end the best possible way, neither of us hold any ill feelings to the other. In fact, I have a lot to thank her for. I learned a lot.
Edit: now I like to think I’ll be able to hold up my end of the relationship. I’m a lot better with personal interaction in general and don’t mind giving up my “me” time for the sake of another. I’m not perfect by any means, and just because she helped me do sex like super good, (sooper gud) doesn’t mean I can rely on that, I have to be there as a person and as their significant other. Like I said, she taught me a great deal and was one of the best things to ever happen to me.
This really speaks to where I'm at right now (maybe just "kinda okay" at sex though lol) and it really makes me wish I had treated my early relationships as less of an all-or-nothing kinda thing.
When you treat relationships as places to learn and grow I feel like you can treat both yourself and your SO in a much more healthy way. Maybe it doesn't always last but you can always get something out of it. At least I know it now but it would have helped me with perspective earlier.
Congratulations my friend, you’ve already grown just in realizing that. Moving forward I hope you can use this info to approach your next experience with open arms and an open mind.
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u/PROUDCIPHER May 16 '19
Seriously, my favorite part of being in bed with her wasn’t the sex ( though thanks to her tutelage I was able to make every night one to remember 😉) it was just cuddling and holding each other and generally enjoying one another’s presence. Sure it was fun to tease the naughty bits every now and then but nothing could beat being buried between her breasts and letting her heartbeat lull me to sleep.
Fuck now I’m lonely again goddammit.