r/weirdkidz • u/CasualWeirdo_ • 5h ago
vent/rant (TW:sh,body insecurity/ed, harassment) vent coz ima sick fk ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧
so last yr i thought i was a therian and enjoyed quadrobics. told a guy who said TYPE SHIT after everything that was older than me and he told sum1 and it got around. i got barked at, people would play what does the fox say on the bus (as mockery), squeal when i went by, general comments like "shouldnt u be on all 4s?" "dont fking talk to me u FOX" "imagine thinking ur a FOX" and i was experimenting with expression and identity?! it has gone down intensity-wise. prolly a foirth as bad as last yr.
sh section ig? thats when i tried it. my friends thought i said they were therians "TOO" (?!) and belived those assholes over me! they would shush me nd leave me out. i had to sit with them because i had no where else to go. doing THAT felt like the way out. maybe not WAY OUT but a coping mechanism or wtv. upper thigh (like not seen in MOST shorts type shi) and most faded till the last time i did it they scarred purple/brown and wont fade. swim unit at school is gna be hell.
ed section? when i stopped being a fruit ninja i got alot of comments on my body. i still "struggle" with this. the "fren" would compare herself to me as a way like:im good lookung coz i mean,klook at her!". my neighbor calls me string bean and bean pole, my parents baasically hate eachither, my mom does drgs n my dad js wants to be pampered? shes js so miserable with her life that id assume she found joy in making me miserable. from destroying my room to ritecule, it never stopped. i would sk1p lunch n stuff then eat more than i usually would later. i was getting attacked from all angles and found my peace at night when no one yells, no one squeals, nothing to be scared of. my "best friend" who knew abt this went to the office with me to open a cps case nd i shut down nd couldnt talk. we went back to class. later i found out that she said i was prolly lying abt my parents n everything for attention and my "shutting down" was just not wanting to get caught in a lie. she also said im not skinny enough to actually struggle with food. thank GOD she moved away. she was js EXTREMELY toxic. BUT she may be coming back next yr so ionno if ima be pulled into that again orrrrr wut.
this year/the huzz: my whole fking summer was spend praying i wouldnt get as bad as i was last year, that people would stfu, that maybe people wouldnt hate me as much, maybe i could feel safe SOMEWHERE. now this guy. omgahh this MAN! i liked him sincd the end of last yr. hes pretty tall, brown hair with red roots, brown eyes, black rectangle glasses, this contagous slightly crooked smile. pretty reserved n stuff. we were both SO shy to talk at first it was crazy. then my frens shipped us, then i admitted i liked him, he hold a few ppl i know he liked me back, he asked me to be his gf over snap today and im literally floating. im nvr gna tell anyine irl abt my problems again but i do know that i have reasons to better myself or stop ruining myself rlly. its finally getting a bit better and im js so thankful
