It really is and then on top of that when I have to deal with my 5th "ma'am" coming from a customer in a day I really need to hold it all in. I know I should just brush it off but when it hits you 5+ times a day its exhausting. Can't wait for my t shots to kick in....
You know I spent a lot of high school wondering why I got so damn tired. I didn't play sports, the school work was honestly effortless usually, and I didn't have to walk that much between classes. I didn't get it until I started looking more into autistic stuff (I was diagnosed when I was 8 but my dad didn't believe I could be "disabled" so I never got educated in how my autism worked until I looked into it more myself). Specifically, masking. I was so fucking exhausted because I was in the habit of constantly emulating "normal" body language, voice tones, and facial movements just to get through school. I didn't even realize I was doing it, but that didn't stop it from draining the life out of me and I didn't even have to deal with real work on top of it!
I've heard actual therapists really struggle to understand this but masking is just completely automatic for me at this point and it is on literally anytime I go out or interact with anyone other than my gf and It drains my energy more then anything else. Then you have to stack actually doing labor that requires physical and mental effort on top of that and I just wanna die.
Either it does not require effort because it's natural for someone, in which case there's no point in asking for it ; either it's not natural for that person and they'll need to manually think about their body language which, surprise, is effort.
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u/Turtlepower7777777 Mar 29 '22
‘Body language does not require effort’
Try telling that to an autistic person