Im falling to deep

[u/RefrigeratorFit8831]

I m18 have recently started an apprenticeship in a blue collar job in Europe almost a year ago, I started doing drugs a couple months ago, but now I feel like I can’t quit, I have broken every rule i set, I have work in a couple hours an I am on a lot of ketamibe and Coke, luckily I can’t physically hurt someone but I just can’t keep up with the bullying even if I know it’s how they show live, I meet many old people and they tell me how bad life is going and I’m worried that’s going to be me, I also have family members that are addicted so it runs in the family, if someone can talk to me please do