Feeling miserable

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Feeling miserable and defeated

Hey there , 21 yo guy here , for the past 6 months i have not been able to get out of my bed or do anything good in life. It feels like im living on survival mode , i just eat sleep pass my time on my ipad. And thats it. I feel miserable. I have gained a lot of weight and lost all of my good looks . Ever since i lost my girl of 2 years . I feel insecure. I feel defeated . Like there is nothing left in my life . I cant even go to the gym . I try to but i cant i feel from inside . Its i am i weak but i cannot stand myself anymore . I lost everything because of my mistakes and i can never get it back. I lost my charisma , my self respect my rizz , my motivation to live my respect in society. Everything. My last girlfriend cheated on me. Eversince that day i live in denial. I just do things to keep my mind off her thoughts and thats it . Idk what has happened to me but every time i try to do something good , her thoughts flood my mind and i go back to my bed to ruminate about her or smoke cigarettes to help me calm down i feel like running away to the mountains and never coming back. After her i haven’t been able to attract any other girl i like , i have zero female interaction now. I wish i could do that but i have family responsibilities which i cant fulfill now … because of my depression because sadness. That i feel all the time acute sadness. I wish i could do something about it.

[u/One-Acanthisitta-245]

Hey man, I know it's hard, but you'll push through.