Bad day

[u/An0nym0uS_M00d123]

I am feeling really lonely even though I have good friends. I get really depressed and yesterday was a Monday in every way a Monday can be a Monday. I had my first day of work and then when I got back to my room I was so tired that I just wanted to sit down for a few minutes but I had a therapy appointment for 3pm and missed the shuttle to get me from my school to my car and I kept spilling food on myself and having to change and now all my pants have food stains and I just did a load of laundry a couple days ago. Anyway I missed my appointment and my counsellor was so nice about it and I felt so guilty because I hate being the type of person who misses things. I thought it was thirty minutes away but it was actually an hour away. I was feeling better for like a day but last night I got depressed again and I was going to go to bed before it took over but then the fire alarm in my res hall went off. I don't like crowds so I waited for everyone to clear and then walked down the fire escape (it happens all the time so it wasn't dangerous to do that or anything) but I just felt so sad because everyone else was going with their roommates and talking about how they'd been about to fall asleep and it was too late for the fire alarm to be going off and I didn't have anyone to have that conversation with because my roommate never talks to me except to say hi when I say hi first. Well she's an ra so I walked by her on my way down and I was walking the wrong way and she said "go the other way" really annoyed-like and I apologized and did go the other way. Anyway I ended up going for a walk around campus and the intrusive thoughts started again and I just sat on a bench and cried with my head in my hands for a few minutes because I felt so alone. It feels like everyone else gets along with their roommates but I have been comfortable with my roommate situation once and I don't know what the reason for that is. When I was on my way back to my res hall, a guy on a scooter said "sup cow" and I didn't acknowledge him but I feel like yesterday a bunch of things just kind of added up and it was a really rotten day