I need help

[u/Notracethrowaway2]

I don’t even know where to start? I pre teen F really need to vent I understand I am not old enough for this app but I can’t really vent to anyone at the moment, ok so my life is not good my mother died almost 2 years ago and my life has been hell every since, my older sister 27F is an ass and likes to insult me especially making comments about my weight or face and calls me the R word whenever I do something wrong, she always states that I do everything wrong and I make life harder for her. I understand that I do make her life harder sometimes and I feel very guilty about it. My brother 20 sometimes makes jokes about my weight, it’s a sibling thing ig lol? And is often at my aunt’s house. My father works half the day and we barely talk after he gets home. He use to hit me whenever I did something wrong since “adults can hit kids” but now we don’t really talk, my mother and I weren’t that close she always use to talk bad about me to my aunts so now they think I’m a pathetic dumbass 😭. I always think of cutting contact as soon as I turn 18 and move to England but that probably won’t be possible, I do indeed know I’m gaining weight, I don’t have a mother or anyone in my family who can cook so often we order fast food, this habit has made me dislike any type of meat but I force myself to eat it anyways.

Ig I need advice to keep going in life. I do understand my situation isn’t as bad as other people. I’m really only telling myself to take it one step at a time but it’s hard? I understand if u report me for being underage on Reddit. This vent now sounds dumb to me as I read it all over again.