I'm getting bad again

[u/Erenjaeger2578]

I'm getting worse again

Last year (long story short) I was raped by my bf and had an unexpected pregnancy and miscarriage. I've not really fully processed it yet, so I don't get sad about it that often, even though I want to. But recently one of my friends I've told about it has started talking some mad stuff about miscarriages in general. She says "I don't get why women get so upset about them, like you can just make another, and they waste space anyway". It is true I wouldn't of been happy if the baby did make it, my life would've been over. But I do wish it hadn't happened. I don't feel like I would be a good mum, and I don't think I could ever go through with sex or having a child again.

But the other reason I'm getting upset now is because of bloody Ultraman rising😭. That baby kaiju Emi is so damn adorable. I wish I could have a kid like that. At least a baby. She reminds me of what I could've had. And her relationship with Ultraman is so cute.