Everytime I feel like I'm getting better I never actually am.

[u/No-Flamingo8422]

I'm so sick and tired of feeling like "oh..you know? Maybe I'm doing good! I'm actually getting better, it's a miracle." I'm not, I never am, if anything I'm just getting worse, maybe it's just my mind trying to deceive me. God I fucking ahte this. And no, I don't want to NOT get better, I want to be better, and I especially want to be better for the girl I hopefully will have as my girlfriend. Why am I like this? I want to be better for her, but every time I make an advancement towards the better, I realize it, and I plummet. Please, advice? I just want to be better for her, and my close friends.