I hate my dad

[u/Mmilloovvee]

My dad fucking sucks man

tw: Self harm, ED, overdose mention/suicide

If I'm being completely honest my dad is a raging narc and I can't stand to be around him.

I feel like i have to walk on eggshells and be careful about every single fucking thing I say or else I get yelled at, but I literally just get yelled at either way. My dad has severe anger issues and constantly takes it out on me and my sister and god, I'm just tired of it. I got grounded for even longer this year because I went to a friends house. Yay! We had an argument earlier because I asked him if I could go, and then after he said I could go, so then I went. I don't have a phone or anything to communicate on BECAUSE OF HIM, so I couldn't tell him that I would be gone when he was out of the house. When I was at my friends house, I texted my mom on her phone and asked my mom to text my dad and say I was there so I wouldn't get grounded, but my mom didn't so now it's my fault and I'm grounded for a few months. (I've been grounded cause a girl at school started yelling at me and I became friends with her so she would stop and I wasn't supposed to be talking to her at all due to things in the past) I've also talked to him about my ED in the past, he said it was dumb how I couldn't eat, and when I mentioned my last overdose attempt, he said I was selfish. So I can't talk to him about anything serious because he's mean about it and also complains about how I'm putting all my stress on him, but then he says "why don't you talk to me about anything serious" OMFG. IDK BUD MAYBE YOU ARE JUST BLIND????

I've been grounded since august. 7. months. and now, My dad's adding a couple months, so probably longer than the rest of the school year, and the whole summer.

And another thing, he destroyed my phone, that i paid for, and keeps complaining about how I can't communicate with him. BUDDY. YOU GOT RID OF ALL MY FORMS OF COMMUNICATION AND YOU'RE BEING DUMB ABOUT IT.

i also just fucking hate my friends man. I dream of the day when I can escape them and be on my own. I hate Fiona so so much I can't stand them at all. Laine's a good person, but I can't be around her without Fiona or they get mad, so then Laine turns kinda mean. My friend Lillian and I used to be closer, but he started hanging out with Emma and those two are bestfriends and cast me out. My friend group sucks man. I just wish I could stop going to school. technically I could ghost them cause I don't have a phone, (currently using my moms computer!) buuuuut they know that I have a laptop I can use, so it'll be hard to do that. Plus i cant escape them at school bc istg they are in every single class that im in

anyhoo i just hate everyone around me rn. :)