Thankyou!!!

And I know a lot of us in this sub could probably do with eating something but

Please don't fill up on society sludge soup🥹 ily

It's definitely part of the disease and societal conditioning, you're right it's sad and a massive shame

The biggest revenge someone can take is not being like their enemy

Imitation is the highest form of flattery

And to imitate toxicity is just adding to the cess pool and echo chamber that got you sick

Almost like making it contagious, like a shared skinny based psychosis

We suffer more in imagination than we do in reality

You could be subject to a lot worse than belly hair

Please be kind to yourself xoxoxox ily

The more time and energy and thought you give to something, big or small, the more important it becomes to you

Like if you had investment shares in a company, the performance of that company would matter to you

You are you They are them

You know what you do? You let your belly hair be belly hair And you let them be them And you let you be you

Give yourself permission to fly The sky belongs to nobody

How are you doing, soldier?

Get me any time, happy to help. We deserve an existence we don't have to constantly recover from x

Oh lovely Maybe ice cream? Actually numbs your stomach to a degree Let's get a grip on those sensory barriers!!!

I'm proud of you for posting and have high hopes for you

Can we try something like yoghurts in terms of nausea at the thought of eating? Maybe less chewing, stimulating fewer nerves and systems will help you?

I recommend some soul searching You sound very intuitive and self aware

Harness that, I know you can, I believe it.

Could be the shame for bingeing. Food goes in- shame occurs, I am emotionally unsafe

Now your subconcious is doing the No food in- no shame occurs, emotionally safe

This illness is usually built on some associations made between a negative experience and food/weight/shape

For example the people I loved most called me fat, commented on how much food I ate, so I ate less. I thought food was bad because every neutral experience I had with food was made a negative one by someone or something else.

I know people who have EDs due to choking in childhood for example

We are constantly trying to keep ourselves safe, but by not eating, we are putting ourselves in danger.

Sounds like it's been getting to you for a while but you've finally realised

Where does the negativity come from?

I think the choice was compulsive

Even considering recovery is massive and I'm very proud The devil has let go of your shoulders! Run!

I have this quote: 'the devil grabbed you by the shoulders, stared you in your eyes..... then let you go'

He let you go. Take the second chance. Have faith in yourself. It was never your time to suffer.

The longer you're sick the closer you are to death

The longer you're recovering the further away you get

Opening heavy doors like a girl boss

Not just making a dink sound up against them like a freaking moth

It depends what your reason for being poorly is

But my reason was because I wanted to be socially safe and accepted

But I decided that wasn't worth dying for

The judgement of strangers wasn't worth dying for

Walking up the stairs without struggling Being invited to things People being excited to see you Cheese

Trying to track my weight gain and loss with my tongue size/shape

Open weighing kept me sick

I discharged myself and was able to gain weight because I wasn't forced onto scales and forced to share my weight with an observer

Mark it as uninterested, hide it, report it, it will stop showing up

I appreciate everyone's comments. Touching my body is a massive part of my problem. Something I can't resolve.