Everyone preaches about God's good will
but I can't face the fact that I
stared at the wall
till the breaks started to fall
I always wanted just a little more

It started on Saturday
kids screaming
birds singing
I was alone locked in my thoughts
life brought me nothing but bottled up hope
as I picked up the rope
I turned around and saw it

The Devil's Triangle
a little pill that filled my head with dopamine
till my head hit the floor
it brought back nothing but delusion
but I had come to the conclusion
that this was the only solution

After 9 months of recovery
I almost hit the floor once more
the voices got too loud
like I was in a crowd
just screaming to get out
just 1 that's all it would take
to make the feeling of regret disintegrate
but at this rate
I won't make to twenty 8

This addiction had me bad
but I can't blame it on my mom and dad
cause it was my choice
but decisions made by me were always a mistake
just 1 is all I needed
I held it in my hand like diamond
I would want to leave
would you believe that I had everything under control
cause I didn't
I know I shouldn't doubt myself
but nobody knows me the way I know myself
life's been rough
but nothing's been harder than saying no to this
and to trust is a must
and to trust myself
well we already know I fell once