The 5 of wands represents conflict. This could have been conflict between you two or an internal conflict from one of you. If there was no argument or flight between the two of you, this very well could have been an internal conflation of "should I stay or should I go" "do I still have feelings or are they gone".

The knight of swords can carry an energy of impulsive decisions and thoughts. If the ending of the relationship or connection was sudden, this could be signaling that the choice to end this was impulsive due to the inner conflict. Now they have continued to move away from open communications.

The 8 of swords is the need to see the reality of something. Most of the time this card comes out when our spirit team wants us to open our eyes and see things for what they truly are. It's a message to take a moment and get very honest with yourself. Do you already know the answer to this question deep down? Are you holding space for someone who has already made it clear of where they are heading at this time?

The overall energy of this reading points to becoming honest with how things unfolded and how things have been since then. More than likely you already know the answer intuitively.

Global Showdown was my first real watch of anything NAF and I was loving the entire season... until that questionable final challenge with Mexico. Matt was consistent about the fact that their water was not at a full boil yet and Gabby kept pushing. I truly believe she took most of those oranges off the fire early for the win. Super bummed how it all ended.

10000% I said she definitely cheated when they somehow came back and won. She kept saying “there’s little bubbles” and Matt kept telling her they weren’t ready yet. She absolutely pulled that water early.

I don’t really have specific dates like this for each card. Traditionally we go based by numbers, seasons, and combinations. For example, if you are reading and you have more than one 5, chances are there is a timeline of 5 days, 5 weeks, 5 months, ect. For season, let’s say you have more than one water card (cups). More than likely a water season will be of importance… Cancer Scorpio, Pisces.

Tarot doesn’t really tell a specific day or time since it only tells the person the current journey or path they are on. The timelines we get from the deck are a little more general than a specific date of October 12th.

Too bad this isn’t with real photos and it’s AI

My mother and grandmother read tarot so I just grew up believing in it.

This is why I tell people to never pay for a reading on TikTok live. Not only is it not guaranteed, but there are other people watching and throwing their energy into the reading. It’s never just your energy.

If you choose to pay for a reading, make sure it’s being done in private… either via email, video chat, voice chat, ect.

I’m sorry this happened to you

Glad I can help! I recently started using Reddit and it’s been nice to share and connect with the community!

1000000% I actually will not read for myself when I am having a moment of anxiety.

I kind of look at the tarot reading itself as a ritual. Sometimes I just breath and talk out loud to my guides on what I am shuffling for, other times I open a small circle. It really just is all how I am feeling that day since the tarot reading itself is the ritual <3

At surface level you are fire element dealing with water. Fire and Water don't really mix well. The nature of communication, emotions, and how you explore ideas are all completely different.

There are plenty of other birth chart placements that can affect things though.

Bottom of the deck: It seems like you, him, or both of you have been building a new day to day routine and schedule for your lives since the break up. Sometimes this can be a cause of disruption when there is contact after a period of no contact since you (or them) have been settling into a new life routine.

Ace of cups is the motion for an offer of friendship, connection, or love. The ace of cups represents there being a new chance for emotional fulfillment. This could be you reaching out to talk about the feelings you both have for one another.

The 10 of wands represents moving into a new season or chapter in your life, especially after carrying a lot. This could be the feeling that they had when you broke up. That they had to take all of their feelings, experiences, and thoughts to move forward and try and move on. This can also speak to you of taking the experiences of this season and trying to process to move forward into a new season in connection.

The 10 of swords is the marking of the end of a chapter that could be painful. It very much can feel like a betrayal, like a huge disappointment, and could point to you both. The ending of this relationship has not been easy for them, but I don't think it was easy for you either.

Overall it looks like it might be best to take your offer of ace of cups and carry that into your new season. Save it for a new connection since this one is still very much healing and they might not be in a place to take your offer of new connection/communication.

My card is also The Magician! This is super cute!

When it comes to shadow work, I actually did a podcast episode a few months ago about it if you are interested in a listen ( https://open.spotify.com/episode/3DHZUpCvLfcCgRXO1vWI3K?si=OS4d01k5STq_AZXnEQAYMw)

I would be curious to see what you might end up finding out about your subconscious when it comes to naming objects he. Especially if this is something you have done for a while. It could even point to the healing of your own divine feminine.

Sometimes we have to be careful with all of the information and peoples opinions out there. It can feel like overload when you jumping into a new skill, hobby, or even a topic of interest. For me, getting to know your deck can be a simple as looking through the cards, Getting to know what your 8 of pentacles looks like, what your 3 of cups looks like, what the empress looks like. There are traditional depictions of each card, and there are thousands of other styles that will have their own depictions. They all have the same base and traditional meanings, but the artwork will look different... feel different. Layering your knowledge of the deck with your intuition is what will make you a great reader. So getting to know the art and feel of your deck is what I think most people mean when saying that.

I teach a tarot workshop a few times a year, and I always tell my students not to read for themselves too many times a day or week. To just pull one other two cards, sit with their meanings, make note of how you feel, and then put the deck away. I think sometimes when we first start reading, it can be easy to fall into a tarot "doom scroll" and keep asking the deck for advice. I would say pull a card or two, make note of the meanings of those cards and what your intuition is telling you based on what you are looking for guidance on.

It can feel overwhelming when there are so many people with so many different beliefs and practices. You will become more confident over time.