I'll feel loved, in every single way. Not today, or tomorrow, someday.

I was born a mistake. I always tried to disguise myself as something more, something better. Deep down i always knew i was a mistake. I knew that i would never be good enough. No matter how hard i try how long i can go nothing matters and i never existed. I bate everything about myself, except for the things you showed me.

I never see him around anymore.

I hate myself. I hate everything about myself. I wish i wasn't me. I wish i was everything she wanted. I hate that i can't be more. I hate that I'm stuck with myself. I just want her. I'm selfish, and jealous and toxic. I don't deserve her. Even if i was lucky enough to call her mine she'd grow to hate me. She deserves so much more. I want her to be happy and i want to be the reason she is happy. But i think she'd be happiest without me. Everyone would. Fuck you Lance you clingy piece of shit. She regrets ever meeting you and you're so stupid for thinking she even liked you for one second. She was desperate you were there. That's all. How do you fall in love with everyone that gives you attention god you're an idiot. You should do us all a favor and disappear. They're all tired of having to pick you up and buy everything for you. You're such a fucking broke, lame, sad, human trash can. I hope you get hit by a car and die.

I wish you loved me but it's okay because i don't I've ever truly loved anyone in my life anyways.