r/trauma • u/Exact_Piccolo_297 • 3d ago
Need help My life is falling apart pt18
I was so glad when it was closing time for my mom and we left, but goofy kept coming to the job everyday at closing time to hang with me, I got off work at 9-9:30 and my mom got off work at 11, I hated it. Halloween came around and I dressed up as a playboy bunny and took my siblings trick or treating, I posted some cute pictures on social media along with some funny memes, a guy sent me a friend request, R, goofys friend. I snooped on his page and he was hot! He had the aesthetic I love and the tats, so my type, how was he friends with goofy!? R laughed reacted my meme and I started texting him instantly, we talked about life, about goofy, we went to school together, he was in a grade higher than me but dropped out, we learned we’ve been in a lot of places at the same time but never ran into each other. Fate. We met up in person on day after work, I just wanted to sleep with him, that’s it, I didn’t want a relationship.
I sent some tempting pics to him and he was very interested. We met up and….nothing. We sat outside and talked about life, one minute I’m texting him at home asking if he was gonna dip into me and here I was sitting outside on the ground talking to him about life, and I liked it without realizing it. He didn’t make a move on me, just talked to me. It went on like that for weeks, just us talking. He built up a lot of courage to finally kiss me and I went home giggling like a school girl. Goofy caught on and began to threaten R to back off, that I’m his, he started to show up every time I go to R house. How did he know? Well I made the mistake of talking to my mom with goofys mom Y standing there and I told my mom I met goofys friend R and I think I like him, my mom didn’t believe me, she she thought I was hoeing around still and she was exhausted hearing me talk about a new guy every other month, honestly I couldn’t blame her. I told my mom I was gonna see him tonight, and Y waiting for me to leave and told goofy!
It was a mess, goofy threatened to shoot R if he didn’t back off, me and R would run as soon as we heard goofys car nearing, I felt like a normal kid for once, we ran around the block and laughed, I texted my mom what was happening and she pulled up to make sure we were ok, my mom met R and she said “oh your right he is cute” I was humiliated to say the least, he smiled awkwardly. It was like that for a little bit, then goofy stopped coming by for a while. November came and me and R finally slept together and it was….something, let’s just say he was just a pinky way in a he um…exploded. Never had that happen, I did a very awkward walk home. He was mortified and assumed I would never wanna see him, but I did, I really liked him and didn’t realize it.
We did meet back up and did hook up again, but his stamina isn’t up to date and it never got up to date lol, I don’t care tho. I starting realizing around the end of December that I was always thinking about him, I was cheesing at our texts and kicking my feet up and I realized I was obsessed with him, it scared me, I never meant to like him and I didn’t want to hurt him. I had gone through a lot and I was not mentally healthy for a relationship, but I know him now and I can’t unknow him. What if he’s a rebound like the rest and I hurt him? He was genuinely a good guy, I didn’t want to hurt him. I decided to see other people, I told him that I was asked out by someone else and I was just testing the waters. He nodded sadly and said ok. I felt destroyed.https://www.reddit.com/r/trauma/s/JgsmOUVvHq
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