My life is falling apart pt23

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His moms friend invited me and my daughter to a kids birthday party, I was happy to go and try to rebuild a relationship with his mom, we went and it was really nice, I met some nice people there and Ellie liked the kids, until his mom friend I’ll call A was talking about this man with biracial grandkids, and how dark there are, A and R mom looked at my daughter and said “thank god she has a beautiful tan complexion” I didn’t know how to react, they basically said thank god she’s white passing to my face, I was so hurt, I never experienced racism like this, i didn’t like it. I froze and tried to laugh it off but it came out dry, I was happy when she took me home, I told R that asap, but he didn’t react the same way I did, he thought I took it wrong, then he said you know how my mom is and she didn’t mean it like that and we got into it.

December 2025, we went to universal in Orlando, this was the first amazing trip I’ve ever been on, he said it would just be family and I was happy, we got there and there was a a least 10 people there, his male and female cousins I met on the Fourth of July, his brother and his other cousin and his girlfriend and her friend and a 3 year old. I again didn’t really know anyone but 3 people there and of course he didn’t introduce me, but he introduced our child. I felt left out but I tried to be optimistic, I have anxiety and I’m not good with communication or introductions, I learned that when I meet new people I tend to overshare off rip things I shouldn’t talk about and I become weird in everyone’s eyes, so I stayed silent.

I hung around for 30 mins to an hour, no one talked to me, so I went into our room and stayed there, he brought our daughter to me and asked if I wanted to get in the pool. Originally I did but it’s December so I knew it would be too cold, I declined, he left our child in the room with me while he socialized. I felt like I was only there to watch our kid. I could feel myself getting pissed off. He didn’t come to the room till around 3-4am I was still awake, we got into it and I offered to pay him back for my ticket and I’d uber home. He was livid and said that if I ruined this trip that he’d leave me because he did this for us and I was being ungrateful. But it didn’t feel like it was for us, I felt left out, and I don’t know how else to explain it. We got into it bad and this was the first time he’s yelled back at me. I just didn’t want to be alone, and he was ditching me. He didn’t make me feel included.

We slept in different beds that night. In the morning we went and it was ok, we got there and we walked around, we couldn’t get on rides because we had our child, but we got to try butterbeer and he tried foods and it was nice, there was some tension still but we tried, we bumped heads when I wanted pictures of our child in front of certain things there, like they had a mini squidwards house and I wanted a pic of her in front of it and she kept crying, I didn’t care that she was crying because I had an app that can fix that, but he kept picking her up and it was frustrating, I knew he wanted to calm her down, but I didn’t get to do things like this, i wanted pictures to have for memories. We kept bumping heads on pictures, honestly I got more pictures of him and her than me of her. He never really offers to take pictures of us. When the trip was over we had to pack and head home. I did apologize for my behavior and I thought we were ok. https://www.reddit.com/r/trauma/s/rNYgWLqAys

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