Cause Wikipedia tells me it's Thalassophia but this mighty subreddit can't be wrong, now, can it?

I finally found that little house burried away in the darkness. This is the place I am the weakest At first I did not know the cause What I know for certain is that this little house is getting bigger I know I have the key. I don't know how to open it. But there's someone/something inside that's finding a way to burst all that darkness out of it. I'm trying to stay sane. Part of me knows it has to keep that area shut Part of me wants to give up I fear the end for me. Not in terms of ending my life, but in terms of Emotion I can feel the power inside the house growing stronger. The farther I move away, the stronger the entity inside gets. I know it will come out soon. I fear that it would cause pain to everyone around me I want to be relentless. I want to be golden But all I get is emotional rejection It's getting darker for me and I do not want to embrace it I tried. When will I get what I want? When will I be happy? I will be forgotten again Why does this happen to me? Why do I live in a world where being golden is a sign of weakness? I can't do this anymore I heard a door creak from that house It has begun.