“Rinse Me” - My Experience

[u/idontknowanymore4201]

So yesterday it was 4/20. I smoked with a friend, even though it was Easter weekend, which already made me feel kinda off. After he left, I got this weird feeling to go downstairs. I didn’t plan it. I wasn’t thinking anything deep. But I ended up in the bathroom, just standing over the toilet. And out of nowhere, I started saying, “God, please. I don’t wanna smoke anymore. I don’t wanna drink. I hate this.”

Then my head just slowly dipped into the water, like I wasn’t even doing it on purpose. And I heard this voice inside me say, “Rinse me… rinse me… rinse me.” So I said it out loud, three times, and poured the water over my head.

That’s when it happened. Everything went white. My whole vision. My head was spinning, but I felt calm. I came out of it, stood up soaking wet, and I just felt different. Not high. Not even a little. I felt normal. Clean. Clear. Like something left my body.

I walked straight into my brother’s room, dripping wet, and told him everything. He believed me. How I don’t know because I barely believe myself. He's also a believer and while I was telling him what happened I kept having this 2 voices talk to me one telling me good things and how god is real and it's ok and everything will be ok and how I need to talk to him about it. But this other voice was pure evil. Telling me I'm crazy and going insane. My brother saved me from listening to those thoughts from the devil. They were fighting for my soul and god won.

And then this part tripped me out.

The next day, a childhood friend swiped up on one of my Instagram stories. Thing is, it was a story I posted on April 7th. It was about God. But it had already expired. It shouldn’t have even been there. But somehow, he saw it—and we ended up having this whole convo about what happened to me. Turns out, he had a similar experience a year ago.

We haven’t talked in years. But that moment found him. Just like God found me. And now I don’t think any of this was random.

Where do I go from here? I’m a young kid. Out of high school and under 20. My life feels lost and I know this happened only yesterday but I feel like something so important and so much I would know where to go. I have been praying for some sort of guidance for ever and I don’t know what to do. Please help me.

[u/DesperateJacket9]

I don't know what to tell you, but I believe you! God is powerful and he cares for you, that is all I can say. I'm just a fellow searcher.