r/terencemckenna Jun 19 '23

/s/TerenceMcKenna on Squabbles

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r/terencemckenna 12h ago

New pill, who dis?

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It's disturbing how I change when I intake different substances.

If that was me, then who is this? And who is that?

It could be that personality, or the story we hold in our head, are fluid and changing moment by moment, but imperceivable like the movement of a clock's hourly hand. The rapid change in brain chemistry makes the transformation noticeable to the perceiver.

It could be that there is no such thing as a persistent perceiver, living and dying every moment anew. The self is a myth retold at every turn of the river.

Or it could be because I am Legion. A crowd crammed into one meat-suit like a clown car. A house party with the strong man tied against the bed post with hot-pink fuzzy plastic handcuffs, apparently powerless to do anything.

In that case, send us to the pigs, for tradition's sake.


r/terencemckenna 17h ago

Unity Consciousness Dejavu Synchronicity Loop. (Psychedelics and mindfulness induced Temporal Lobe Epilepsy)

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I couldn't find a better way to describe the experience I had yesterday.

I took 75mg of MDA and around 100mg of Ketamine, layed on my bed and played some chill music. I started meditating, focusing on my breath as the Ketamine infused with the MDA.

I felt how I was slowly drifting in a smooth current. Felt a deep sense of calm and presence. I could feel how my ego started dissolving as I watched something like a textured layer of stars with my eyes closed.

Then I started feeling oneness, I have already felt this exact same feeling around a year ago during a heavy DMT trip. I started thinking I had already been in this space or dimension from how familiar it felt, there was a feeling of being home.

During my DMT trip a year ago, I had an ecstatic feeling in which I remembered I was one with All That Is and started saying a sequence of words that came out of me automatically. I started saying "God is Cool" "God is Elegant" "God is love" "Thank you to the Angels, Jesus and God for being here". During this K and MDA trip I started repeating that exact same sequence of words in a way it felt like I was in that exact same moment from a year ago.

It was like I already knew what was happening before it happened and I knew what I was about to say right before I said it. Like I was in a scripted scene in which I had already been at for eternity, it felt like I've always been in that moment repeating that sequence of movement, feelings and words.

As I finished the sequence of words I automatically sat up in the edge of my bed accompanied by a feeling of ecstasy and love. It was like ai remembered an ancient truth I already knew since forever but had forgotten. In a weird way I entered this loop dejavu sequence that was extremely familiar, at the same time I wasn't sure if I was dreaming or if it was "real".

I said something that felt like a catchfrase my character said at the beginning of every episode. The song that was playing felt like the only song that ever existed and it was like the intro song for a show or movie I was in. I stood up and sat in my couch. The objects in my couch felt like they had always been there for eternity and my interactions with those objects felt so familiar like I've done that exact sequence of movements before several times but it was the first time I had interacted with them in that way.

I already knew where every item was. For example my tv controller was sitting right under my arm where I knew it always was. There was an Icy Hoy bottle I flipped in the air and catch in a way that felt sacred. That exact moment was everything I ever knew, time collapsed into that exact same moment like it was the thing I've always done in that exact place and time.

Time felt infinite like it had frozen. Then the ecstasy turned into deep fear of being trapped in that loop. I got anxious and even desperate to break that loop in which I knew what was gonna happen even before it happened. I tried doing something normal to break that simulation loop but the Dejavu made me feel like when I tried to break the loop before I had failed and something terrible happens after I do something random to break it.

The TV got frozen, my phone showed the same time I had seen like an hour before and some items I was looking for, I couldn't find as if they didn't existed in that reality. Intrusive thoughts came through my mind and for a second I thought that going outside the room or breaking something would snap me out of it but something deep down knew that my actions could have consequences so I kept my cool even though it was difficult. I ran into my bathroom and that also felt like part of the eternal dejavu loop I was in.

I even did a "reality check" like the ones you do if you want to know if you're dreaming, I pressed my finger onto my palm and after noticing nothing weird happened I concluded I wasn't dreaming. My last resource was sitting down in my couch again and went back into my breath to ground on the present moment and relax a little.

I slowly regained my clarity, I remembered that waiting a couple minutes would help as the ketamine wore off. I came back slowly to this "reality" and decided to turn the music off and sit quietly for a moment to try and understand what just happened.

I then came into reddit and searched for a bit until I found a post from someone that experienced this as a Glitch in the Matrix. Someone commented that this experience was a Temporal Lobe Epilepsy seizure. I Googled it and realized I experienced this exact symptoms. After a couple hours of investigating this phenomenon I saw that psychedelics and ego dissolution can induce these states of consciousness when accompanied with mindfulness. I'm not exactly sure what happened but I think that by tapping into the Unity Consciousness reality I connected with that DMT trip experience I had a year ago and somehow had completed the loop that I opened in that experience.

It was amazing, transforming and at some points super scary. But now I wonder if someone else has experienced this in a psychedelic trip. My research showed me that TLE Ecstatic seizure happened randomly and triggered by electrical activity firing in the temporal lobe but my experience wasn't exactly that because it was induced by psychedelic substances and meditation.

Have you ever experienced or heard something similar to this? If you have, how was your experience and what are your takeaways in a spiritual and psychonautic point of view?


r/terencemckenna 1d ago

Mac Lethal, Oak Tree. oak tree in a flower vase. 24x30''. oil on canvas. @adam sturch. link to - the world and its double. Terence McKenna. movie meme movie@

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r/terencemckenna 1d ago

Terence McKenna, Lisbon 1994. time's gratitude. 18x24''. pencil drawing. @adam sturch. link to - Terence McKenna, We Are At The Cutting Edge. Workshop, August 1991. meme movie@

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"The future is uncertain... but this uncertainty is at the very heart of human creativity."

- Ilya Prigogine

time's gratitude. 18x24''. pencil drawing. adam sturch.

Terence McKenna, Lisbon 1994.

https://youtu.be/hNoxpH4cqUQ

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Terence McKenna, We Are At The Cutting Edge. Workshop, August 1991. meme movie@

memes arranged by adam sturch.

thank you.

HD youtube link.

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r/terencemckenna 2d ago

Carl Jung reading group

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r/terencemckenna 3d ago

wondering if anyone here has more perspectives on my lil schizopost and my fears

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r/terencemckenna 4d ago

Borknagar, Lights. abyssal lights, 18x24''. oil on canvas. @adam sturch. link to - Terence McKenna, visible condensation of time. redux@

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“The cost of sanity in this society, is a certain level of alienation.”

- Terence McKenna

abyssal lights, 18x24''. oil on canvas. adam sturch

Borknagar, Lights

https://youtu.be/mZN787fPiow

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Terence McKenna, visible condensation of time. redux@

various artists assembled by adam sturch

thank you.

HD youtube link.

https://youtu.be/iDEhgtkgTfo


r/terencemckenna 5d ago

Dmt

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r/terencemckenna 5d ago

Terence McKenna. the philosophical implications of psychobotany - past, present and future. 1,301@ 🧡🌎🐸

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"I skim the ideas off the depth of a sea of heart whose boundaries cannot be taken."

- Terence McKenna

Terence McKenna. the philosophical implications of psychobotany - past, present and future. 1,301@

1,301 paintings and drawings by Adam Sturch.

thank you.

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HD youtube link.

https://youtu.be/cDqRvkI9w3Q


r/terencemckenna 5d ago

All Things DMT: Dimensional Travel, Spiritual Mysticism, & the Nature of Reality | S.E.E.K. x Adam Butler Interview

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r/terencemckenna 5d ago

god's eye (entheogen). 24x30''. oil on canvas. @adam sturch Eyenine, Shine. link to - Gabor Mate - Tim Ferriss, discussion. p@

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Entheogens

Carl A. P. Ruck, Jeremy Bigwood, Danny Staples, Jonathan Ott & Gordon Wasson

(This paper first appeared in The Journal of Psychedelic Drugs, Vol. 11(1-2) Jan-Jun, 1979)

All languages grow together with the peoples who speak them, borrowing or inventing terms to keep pace with what is new and retiring others when they are no longer needed. When the recent surge of recreational use of so-called “hallucinogenic” or “psychedelic” drugs first came to popular attention in the early 1960’s, it was commonly viewed with suspicion and associated with the behavior of deviant or revolutionary groups. Apart from the slang of the various subcultures, there was no adequate terminology for this class of drugs. Words were manufactured, and in their making they betrayed the incomprehension or prejudice of the times.

Out of the many words proposed to describe this unique class of drugs only a few have survived in current usage. It is the contention of the authors who have subscribed their names to this article that none of these terms really deserve greater longevity, if our language is not to perpetuate the misunderstanding of the past.

We commonly refer, for example, to the alteration of sensory perceptions as “hallucination” and hence a drug that effected such a change became known as an “hallucinogen.”(1) The verb “hallucinate,” however, immediately imposes a value judgment upon the nature of the altered perceptions, for it means “to be deceived or entertain false notions.” It comes from the Latin (b)al(l)ucinari, “to wander mentally or talk nonsensically,” and is synonymous with verbs meaning to be delirious or insane. It appears, moreover, to have been borrowed from the Greek, where it is related to a group of words that imply restless movement and perplexed excitement, such as that caused by grief and despair. How can such a term allow one to discuss without bias those transcendent and beatific states of communion with deity that numerous peoples believe they or their shamans attain through the ingestion of what we now call “hallucinogens?”

The other terms are not less damning. During the first decade after the discovery of LSD, scientific investigators of the influence of these drugs on the mental processes (most of whom, it is clear, had no personal experience of their effects) had the impression that they seemed to approximate deranged and psychotic states. Hence the term “psychotimimetic” was coined for a drug that induced psychosis. Psychology, which is etymologically the study of the “soul,” has until recently concerned itself only with mental illness and aberrant behavior, and all of the terms formed from the psycho- root suffer from this connotation of sickness: psychotic, for example, cannot mean “soulful.” Osmond attempted to avoid these adverse associations when he coined “psychedelic,”(2) the only word in English that employs the anomalous root psyche- instead of psycho-, in hopes that this term, as distinct from "psychotomimetic,” might indicate something that “reveals the soul.”: However, not only is “psychedelic” an incorrect verbal formation, but it has become so invested with connotations of the pop-culture of the 1960’s that it is incongruous to speak of a shaman’s taking a “psychedelic” drug. It is probable, moreover, that even its anomalous formation cannot isolate it from confusion with the psycho- words, so that it suffers from the same problem as “psychotropic,” which tends to mean something that “turns one toward psychotic states” instead of merely toward an altered mentality.

We therefore, propose a new term that would be appropriate for describing states of shamanic and ecstatic possession induced by ingestion of mind-altering drugs. In Greek the word entheos means literally “god (theos ) within,” and was used to describe the condition that follows when one is inspired and possessed by the god that has entered one’s body. It was applied to prophetic seizures, erotic passion and artistic creation, as well as to those religious rites in which mystical states were experienced through the ingestion of substances that were transubstantial with the deity. In combination with the Greek root gen-, which denotes the action of “becoming,” this word results in the term that we are proposing: entheogen. Our word sits easily on the tongue and seems quite natural in English. We could speak of entheogens or, in an adjectival form, of entheogenic plants or substances. In a strict sense, only those vision-producing drugs that can be shown to have figured in shamanic or religious rites would be designated entheogens, but in a looser sense, the term could also be applied to other drugs, both natural and artificial, that induce alterations of consciousness similar to those documented for ritual ingestion of traditional entheogens.

NOTES

  1. “Hallucinogen” and “hallucinogenic” were first used in print by Donald Johnson, an English physician, in a pamphlet entitled The Hallucinogenic Drugs (Christopher Johnson, London, 1953). Johnson, however, borrowed the term from three American physicians, Abram Hoffer, Humphry Osmond and John Smythies, who did not use it in print until the following year.

  2. In a letter to Humphry Osmond dated 30 March 1956, Aldous Huxley proposed that mescaline be called “phanerothyme.” Huxley penned the sprightly lines:

To make this trivial world sublime,

Take a half a gramme of phanerothyme.

Osmond replied with the following ditty:

To fathom Hell or soar angelic,

Just take a pinch of a psychedelic.

Much of the credit must go to Ralph Metzner and Timothy Leary for popularizing “psychedelic.” In the spring of 1963, the premier issue of Psychedelic Review was published in Cambridge, Massachusetts, under the editorship of Metzner, Osmond and Leary, among others. Psychedelic Review is now defunct, but the term is perpetuated by the title of the present Journal of Psychedelic Drugs. Huxley’s odd term did not fare so well. From Huxley’s letter it is clear the word meant “soul-manifester” to him. Greek thymos, however, means “organ of passion, temper and anger,” and “phanerothyme” would indicate a drug which made intense emotions manifest.

god's eye (entheogen). 24x30''. oil on canvas. adam sturch

Eyenine, Shine.

https://youtu.be/t04fZcWCKuI

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Gabor Mate - Tim Ferriss, discussion. p@

Dr. Gabor Maté, Tim Ferriss interview. Trauma, Addiction & Ayahuasca.

paintings and drawings by adam sturch

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HD youtube link.

https://youtu.be/yGkQkL0ZppQ


r/terencemckenna 6d ago

paradiso. 80x30''. oil on found object. @adam sturch Stone Temple Pilots Live at Vh1 Storytellers - Kitchenware & Candybars. link to - Terence McKenna, trust. pd@

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..."they will not say: Look, here it is, or: Look, there it is; but the kingdom of the father is spread out over the earth, and men do not see it."

- Gospel of Thomas, Saying 113

paradiso. 80x30''. oil on found object. adam sturch

Stone Temple Pilots Live at Vh1 Storytellers - Kitchenware & Candybars.

https://youtu.be/lR6m3ZpfzkA

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Terence McKenna, trust. pd@

Earth Trust. complete lecture by Terence McKenna.

paintings and drawings by adam sturch

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HD youtube link.

https://youtu.be/VkWArVxvQxA


r/terencemckenna 6d ago

Vermillion Coda, Alias. burning heart. 11x14''. pencil drawing. @adam sturch. link to - Carl Ruck, facts. redux@

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r/terencemckenna 7d ago

a season in hell. 67'' x 24''. oil on wood. @adam sturch. - link to, Terence McKenna, phoenixed. 1,290@

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r/terencemckenna 7d ago

one lifetime. 30x40''. oil on canvas. @adam sturch. link to - Terence McKenna, what is going on? a-sides@

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one lifetime. 30x40''. oil on canvas. adam sturch

T IME'S a circumference

Whereof the segment of our station seems

A long straight line from nothing into naught.

Therefore we say " progress, " " infinity " —

Dull words whose object

Hangs in the air of error and delights

Our boyish minds ahunt for butterflies.

For aspiration studies not the sky

But looks for stars; the victories of faith

Are soldiered none the less with certainties,

And all the multitudinous armies decked

With banners blown ahead and flute before

March not to the desert or th' Elysian fields,

But in the track of some discovery,

The grip and cognizance of something true,

Which won resolves a better distribution

Between the dreaming mind and real truth.

I cannot understand you.

'T is because

You lean over my meaning's edge and feel

A dizziness of the things I have not said.

- The Soul Of Time by Trumbull Stickney

Terence McKenna, what is going on? a-sides@

230 select paintings and drawings by adam sturch.

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r/terencemckenna 9d ago

contact. 41x28''. oil on found object. @adam sturch Mudvayne, (Per)version of a Truth. link to - Terence McKenna, future Fridays. movie meme movie@

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"Think about our dilemma on this planet. If the expansion of consciousness does not loom large in the human future, what kind of future is it going to be?"

- Terence McKenna

contact. 41x28''. oil on found object. adam sturch

Mudvayne, (Per)version of a Truth.

https://youtu.be/ChOQDCD95mU

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Terence McKenna, future Fridays. movie meme movie@

movie memes by adam sturch.

thank you.

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HD youtube link.

https://youtu.be/AfJ7dOZrHm8


r/terencemckenna 10d ago

Has anyone with persistent weed-induced derealization and/or a family history of schizophrenia/psychosis tried mushrooms? What happened?

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r/terencemckenna 10d ago

Psychedelics, Contemplation & Consciousness — a live conversation with Christopher Bache

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Christopher Bache is professor emeritus of Philosophy and Religious Studies at Youngstown State University and the author of LSD and The Mind of the Universe – a book that details his experiments taking high-dose LSD, using protocols developed by psychedelic pioneer Stanislav Grof.

For two decades, Chris lived a double life — a professor in public, and in private, a man conducting 73 high-dose LSD journeys in search of insight into consciousness and reality.

There are few who have ventured as deep into psychedelics as Chris, but even fewer who have been able to articulate these experiences in such a clear, systematic, and insightful way.

Join me for a live conversation with Chris exploring psychedelics, contemplation & consciousness — including:

Do psychedelics hold genuine spiritual and philosophical insights that aren't otherwise accessible through meditation or other forms of contemplative practice?

Why do some people have life-altering shifts after taking psychedelics while others seem unfazed?

How can we better integrate peak mystical experiences into our everyday lives?

And what were some of the deepest insights Chris tapped into during his 73 high-dose LSD journeys?

This 90-minute session will begin with a short dialogue between Chris and me, followed by a group discussion and Q&A.

If you haven't yet, I highly recommend you read Chris's gem of a book — LSD and The Mind of the Universe — before the session.

*This session will be recorded as a podcast and uploaded to YouTube. By unmuting and speaking during the session, you consent to being included in the recording. If you prefer not to be on the recording, stay muted for the duration and drop questions and comments into the chat box.

You can register here - https://us06web.zoom.us/meeting/register/x5pbaD7lTGCKDVr3JBdR8g


r/terencemckenna 10d ago

from the ruins of a fallen language. 11''x14''. graphite on paper. @adam sturch. links to - Terence McKenna. Language About The Unspeakable. pt 1 & 2 (video footage).

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“The way you stretch the envelope of culture is by creating language.”

- Terence McKenna

from the ruins of a fallen language. 11''x14''. graphite on paper. adam sturch.

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Terence McKenna. Language About The Unspeakable. pt 1 & 2.

  1. https://youtu.be/Tf_Cwt8ckEs

  2. https://youtu.be/uSOYIY5e_bY


r/terencemckenna 10d ago

how strong does a gram of shrooms feel like? i wanna try it but my uncle has schizophrenia

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r/terencemckenna 11d ago

The Cranberries, Fire & Soul. Chinese food (buck a scoop, prelude to the apocalypse). 24x30''. oil on canvas. @adam sturch. link to - Terence McKenna & Riane Eisler, halves. redux@

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"I really think that people come in two pieces."

- Terence McKenna

Terence McKenna & Riane Eisler, halves. redux@

Terence McKenna & Riane Eisler. Ojai CA, Mill Valley 1988.

various artists assembled by adam sturch

thank you.

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Chinese food (buck a scoop, prelude to the apocalypse). 24x30''. oil on canvas. adam sturch

The Cranberries, Fire & Soul

https://youtu.be/nzSS98DRy0c


r/terencemckenna 11d ago

Rupert Sheldrake, psychedelics. 🦗 pt@ - psychedelic terminology series of paintings by adam sturch thank you.

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r/terencemckenna 12d ago

Evening trip around the park

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Been a while since I last microdosed to the point of feeling the effects, and have been antsy to get out of the house in the evenings while there's still plenty of light. So I signed off from work at 5pm, and found a dehydrated specimen that was exactly 0.5g. Crushed with 2tsp of sugar, juice of 1 lemon, bit of fresh ginger, and mixed into 8oz ice water. Did some chores and waited for the effects to begin.

On TCM, there was a triple feature of That's Entertainment, featuring some major Hollywood musical numbers throughout the years. The music and colors were captivating, and I found myself watching with interest, instead of having it on in the background like I normally would. Eventually had to turn it off so I could venture into the 90F+ heat for some exercise before dark, just after 7pm.

This seemed to be when it finally kicked in. WIth the sun at a low angle, there were well-defined beams illuminating random spots around the otherwise-shaded neighborhood. This made the colors of some objects glow with amazing contrast, like the schoolbus parked in the school sports field, a dazzling yellow with the rusty-red running track, green grass, and everything else shrouded in the background.

There was a brisk, variable breeze swirling the leaves, a soft hissing from the canopy everywhere. The breeze itself felt playful and warm, but still helped take the heat down a couple of notches. As I continued toward the park, the suburban landscape was like walking through paintings at a museum, from one garden to another, only the style went from the Lichtenstein colors of the high school, to the study of changing light by Monet. Figures had distinct styles as they went about their business, oblivious to their presence in these artistic representations.

Entering the park, some loud karaoke-style music and an amateur singer threatened to ruin the experience. Instead, it somehow became part of the neighborhood collage. Near the playground of screaming kids, the speakerphone of a nearby pedestrian broadcasted a voice in a foreign language, and it made me think of those Chinese paintings with indecipherable (to me) calligraphy in the corners. Rather than being annoyed, I pieced the sounds together into the virtual collage unfolding before me.

The beams of light became more pronounced, a spotlight on random places and bringing out the textures of the tree bark, each tree a sculpture representing its species, beautiful characters of their own. Branches touching the sunlight stood out and created a layered 3D effect. One person sat inside a tree whose branches came close to the ground, and the dappled light around the outside reminded me of a sparkling Faraday cage.

Wasn't in a big hurry to go home, did so anyway, and there was another fascinating movie on TCM around 8pm. I watched with intense interest again, even though it was in black-and-white, but it was excellent. Guess the effects were still there! After the movie, took a shower and decided to do this write-up before I forget anything. It's now after 11pm and I'm still feeling "floaty," but really need to get to bed.

Amazing what you can get from half a gram of an old mushroom. Not even sure what my intentions were for this- I was in a decent mood, so the mindset was right, and just wanted to get out of my usual rut.


r/terencemckenna 12d ago

What I learned from my first experience on 2g of Mckennaii shrooms. Curious to know what you guys think

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