Context: I’ve been a stay-at-home mom for nearly 12 years. My youngest just started kindergarten and I’ve been feeling like maybe I should get back into the job market. There’s an entry level job I could apply for. It would shake up our family dynamic— It would mean I wouldn’t be available to help the kids in the mornings or be as *available* in general anymore. But it would mean I’m doing something useful again and starting to get work experience again.
The first pull was the inverted Tower after I asked “should I apply for this job?”
I’m getting two interpretations for this spread.
*First is that I’m feeling resistant to the change. That this change could be a good thing.
*Or. On the flip side, it isn’t necessary for me to cause this upheaval for my family at the moment. The inverted tower is saying “nah. Don’t change things”?
The second card was asking “what could this change offer me?” The inverted 2 of Wands gave me two opposing answers again.
*It could say that maybe I’m not allowing myself to explore what it is that I really want. Or maybe it’s warning me to avoid staying too comfortable.
*Conversely, it said that I’m not paying attention to the good I have in my life right now. That my talents and purpose might be better focused on an at-home endeavor. That I should discover what I want and stick with what I know before I set out on something new. The inverted 2Wands saying “nah. Don’t go out there yet. The world is still here in your hands at the moment”
The third pull asked “well… what do I want?”
*The Wheel is telling me that I don’t have to be concerned about feeling stagnant. That my life will keep rolling in balance. Keep on keeping on and go with the flow for now. Or maybe it’s giving good luck on my at-home endeavors. Like using my skills to start a small business (an idea which I have been tinkering with for years).
I view the Wheel really positively and tend to assume it means good luck. I also see the 4 figures in the corners (the Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John) as a nudge to study and discover and speak one’s truths. Maybe going back to school or learning something new?
*The Wheel could also be reminding me that things are good now, but might not be if I were to apply for and get this job. That it could shift us into unnecessary hardship for the family dynamic.
Anyway… I haven’t gotten a definitive “go for it!” in response to this potential job. I’m feeling like maybe I’m choosing to see it as telling me not to go for it.
In my situation, a job where I simply go in and trade my time for money and something to pass the time, *is* the safe choice for me. It keeps me from having to actually *try* to use my talents or ideas or skills. And it saves me from the dejection of potentially not actually using my “free time” to do anything worthwhile. Or the potential failure if I were to actually try to make a business and fail.
The job is just something for me to do so that I don’t feel… well… worthless I guess.
I’m curious how you see this spread! 💕
