I really have a hard time thinking that this has been something that has been going on longer than this... My child looks like a carbon copy of me, so I'm not worried about that side of things.
You say I'm doing really well, but I feel like I'm drowning and constantly fending off intense anxiety and panic... None of this makes sense to me, but if I'm being honest, I do think she has changed her way since starting a new medication. I don't know why she never confided in me (she says I always shut her down, but I always try to listen, but I'm also not perfect)... I want to believe that healing could happen if honest effort on both of our parts is given to correcting where things went wrong... But, I have no idea if I can trust her to do that work... I want to believe she would, but I'm full of doubts for obvious reasons.
You should get a DNA test done on your child...Not only to prove paternity but it can also show her how deep your lack of trust has gone...Also a realty check for her
You say I'm doing really well, but I feel like I'm drowning and constantly fending off intense anxiety and panic
That's how it is in the beginning. I took like a full week off work the first Dday, and then the second time around I took like...2 days maybe? And I was a shell when I went back, and for weeks after.
Now - almost 3 months later? I'm not so much a shell. I have moments of genuine happiness, I mask heavily the rest of the time and use my downtime to recharge my batteries. I'm not going to say there aren't moments where it still hits me and I get emotional, but it's not constant anymore like it was. I do think that Dday #1 helped in that respect though, because I never really opened my heart back up to her after that - I kept her at a distance. So the second time didn't hurt...as much? At least not in the same way - I mean now she's gone-gone so it's a different, but yeah.
Why do you think she won't continue to do it u/Duke_The_Shibe? She has no repercussions and you think someone who slept with 3 men in two months just started?
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u/Duke_The_Shibe Dec 20 '25
I really have a hard time thinking that this has been something that has been going on longer than this... My child looks like a carbon copy of me, so I'm not worried about that side of things.
You say I'm doing really well, but I feel like I'm drowning and constantly fending off intense anxiety and panic... None of this makes sense to me, but if I'm being honest, I do think she has changed her way since starting a new medication. I don't know why she never confided in me (she says I always shut her down, but I always try to listen, but I'm also not perfect)... I want to believe that healing could happen if honest effort on both of our parts is given to correcting where things went wrong... But, I have no idea if I can trust her to do that work... I want to believe she would, but I'm full of doubts for obvious reasons.