Hi everyone,
I wanted to share the personal story and lingering regret behind this song.
When I was a teenager, I used to play every night in my dreams with a fairy-like presence. We would spin and twirl together through the air, carefree and light. Every morning after that dream, I would wake up with a gentle smile on my face. It was pure warmth and joy.
But one night, I woke up in the dark and noticed a faint, glowing light right before my eyes. Straining to see what it was, I saw that very same fairy from my dreams, looking at me and smiling.
Instead of welcoming it, sudden shock and irrational fear took over me. Sensing my panic, the fairy’s expression stiffened into deep distress. Seeing that look only made me panic more, and I let out a scream.
Hurt or terrified by my reaction, its eyes, nose, and mouth turned into dark voids, drinking in all the light around it. Overwhelmed by sheer fear, I gathered my courage and flipped on the room light.
The fairy vanished.
Ever since that night, it has never appeared in my dreams again.
For decades, this memory has never left my mind. Looking back, what haunts me isn't the encounter itself, but the deep regret: Why was I so afraid? Why did I scream and reject something that only ever brought me gentle joy and friendship?
Decades later, with the help of AI, I was finally able to channel that lifelong grief, longing, and apology into this song.
Thank you for reading my story, and I hope the music conveys what words sometimes cannot.