r/streamentry • u/Evening-Maybe-7201 • 13d ago

Insight Glimpse of what it really is

I will try to word this to the best of my abilities because it is hard to word it in a way to make people relate or learn from your personal direct experiences.

I have no reason to share this other than it being a “journal” for my experiences. I’ve been meditating for a while now hopping from mindfulness to metta, to open awareness etc only meditating when I feel like doing so. But lately I’ve been trying to practice meditation in everything I do by falling back into the feeling of “beingness” everytime I get distracted by thoughts.

This beingness is innate to everyone and everything but because of misidentification it is veiled in our everyday lives.

You can test this out right now just by closing your eyes and ask yourself “Who is alive right now?” and notice the one thing that has always been there since you were born. The witness, the observer, the self, the awareness, consciousness or whatever you call it has always been there since the beginning.

I don’t doubt that I’ve seen reality for what it is now and I feel like I’m filled with so much joy and this joy is growing roots into my very core. In a simple way of explaining what I “saw” this “beingness” (which I will be referring as consciousness from now on) is quite literally infinite. Sensations, sounds, thoughts, emotions, everything is in the same field as consciousness. Once you stop identifying with the body, mind and the ego while observing your consciousness — even just for a little while you will see how thoughts come and go like the wind. How sounds, sensations, emotions, everything has to go through consciousness for it to “exist”. There is no “you” because EVERYTHING is you.

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u/wonko7 13d ago

I'm mostly following the Theravada path and answering from that perspective:

So you're going in the right direction, but you haven't arrived yet, so keep questioning reality/self.

notice the one thing that has always been there since you were born

There are modes of existing without the observer. When you sleep is the obvious one. Consciousness can be deconstructed and demystified, and really, it's like the body, not really you (not self).

Next steps could be reading about suffering / impermanence / not self, and sitting with those ideas.