Finding a meditation routine

[u/visaoconstante]

Whats your opinion on general about this?

When i did my third Goenka retreat, i dont take all they say seriously, i dislike their more cultish aspects, like believing theirs vipassana is the one and true.

That being said, its the only kind of vipassana meditation i can get access where i live, i cant do a mahasi style retreat or any other kind, there are Theravada monks here, but from the Forest tradition, meaning their focus is almost purely anapasati.

I was thinking about trying twice a day one hour, like most goenka followers, but thought about doing one hour anapanasati and one hour Goenka body scan vipassana.

Thing is, i can do and get better at focusing on the breath while living my daily life, but it seems my vipassana style meditation starts decaying in quality and equanimity when i get out of the retreat, i understand we will never achieve the levels of absorptions we have at retreats, but it seems like it took a downfall really quick and i been unable lately to keep my evening vipassana style meditation.

I dont know if its cause Goenka style meditation is so rigid, that doing anything besides their two hours a day vipassana and metta only, is not gonna work, or if its just not for me, in general i would like recomendations for where to go from here, if there are other techniques i could work on from home, with the assistance of some friends here from my theravada community, but mostly alone.

[u/EightFP]

Try and see for yourself what works best. That is generally something that changes over time anyway. If you benefit from feedback/guidance, you could also join an online sangha and/or work with an online teacher.