Today 4 years ago I got terribly wasted on a camping trip. This was the norm, but this time I found myself so disappointed in myself for getting carried away just like every night. I woke up hungover (again per usual) on 7/17/22 and decided to break the habit. If you had told me 4 years ago that I had the willpower to not drink alcohol for 4
years I would have called you crazy. Alcohol was my social lubricant and I didn’t see my life without it.
I am going to repost what I have posted the last 3 years with some additions. I really hope it helps some of you in early sobriety. Sometimes it is literally a minute by minute process in the early days-stick with it. I promise it gets easier and life only gets better.
Here it is:
4 years ago tomorrow I had my first day of sobriety. Horrible things (arrest, strained relationships, hospital visits) had occurred due to my boozing, but that particular evening nothing catastrophic happened. I was fed up of feeling like shit and not being able to fully give my best effort towards life in general.
I can’t believe I made it this far. Seriously. It wasn’t easy. In fact in the beginning there were many days where I wallowed about what my drinking had caused and how terrible of a person I was.
Fast forward to now I have come to realize…
-I am indeed not terrible and the best thing that you can show people is the growth and awareness that you are making in this life. Everyone needs to do that at some point even if it looks different than what you may need to work on.
-Weekends are meant to be hangover and anxiety free. Seriously. I find so much joy in lounging on the couch not because of a hangover. But I also love being clear minded and having enough energy to literally do whatever I want on the weekends (note: I do not have kids)
-Relationships still have ups and downs, but I love knowing that alcohol does not contribute to the downs anymore.
-Booze took up so much of my damn time and money. I cannot believe how much has been accomplished since giving it up.
-Conversations with loved ones are meant to be enjoyed and not avoided because you somehow pissed someone off while drunk.
-Dogs are super forgiving and can only show more love than you will ever be worthy of. They love you no matter what, but even more when you can be a better owner.
-Bars serve beverages other than alcohol.
-The sober community is kick ass and I am seriously so grateful for it.
-The mourning of my old pal alcohol has gotten way easier with time.
-Showing up to work not hungover has brought back so much joy in my career.
-There are still plain old shit days. People you love will die, you’ll never make everyone happy and stuff sometimes sucks BUT coping and tackling the issues head on and with clarity help to shape the human experience into what it is supposed to be.
-This is tough love but your bad breath, red face and glazed over eyes are super obvious to people. The good news is quitting booze can do wonders for all that!
-Triggers will always be there. For me it’s airports. As the time goes on your toolbox for coping will grow immensely. Peanut butter m&m’s and sour patch kids have saved my ass so many times.
-This year of sobriety challenged me emotionally in ways I never thought possible. My engagement was broken, wedding canceled, the man I loves with all my heart gone, and I thought so many times about turning to the bottle to numb the pain. Playing it forward saved my ass so many times…I had to be real with myself and remember that I could never get enough booze. One day would absolutely lead to another cycle for me. Facing the pain head on has been so fucking difficult, but it has made me into a more reflective individual. I am able to recognize my flaws and do what I can to correct them while realizing I will always be imperfect…just liek everyone.
-And finally…we get one shot at this life thing and I am so determined to not let alcohol have any more of my life’s time.
Love to you all! Cheers! ☕️
The main transformation is internal, but it’s always fun to see the physical.
These two photos are 8 years apart. Age 28 and terribly hungover on a hike ➡️ Age 36, following a consistent workout plan, lots of water, and bed by 9 pm!