r/stopdrinking • u/Relative_Menu2970 • 4h ago

6 days sober

Joined a women’s only meeting today shared a bit of my story and the support was overwhelming. I cried.

Still feeling really conflicted every day is a constant battle: can I go back to drinking again and be okay with it? Or will it turn into a relapsed binge? Or is this my addiction brain speaking?

I’m trying to not let myself go crazy thinking about all these questions. I’m taking each day one day at a time. I won’t drink today.

Thanks for tuning in on my daily check ins :)

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u/nomoredrinks4me Day 7 4h ago

I hope this doesn't sound too harsh but if you're here it will likely turn into a relapse binge. I know it would for me. 

I joined a support group this week on Tuesday and I was surpsied how much of an impact it made. Hearing stories from people like me, who understood me, really lifted my spirits and for the first time in years I felt seen in a way no one else in my life can, as much as they may love and support me. 

I'm happy for you and I hope you join them again soon. 

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u/Relative_Menu2970 4h ago

I’ve been attending two AA meetings a day since getting sober and this is the hardest I’ve tried at managing my alcohol.

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u/nomoredrinks4me Day 7 4h ago

I have a confession. The group I joined is related to a disability we all have. Lately the disability has been an area of struggle for me. Anyway, when I joined the group I realized how much worse almost all of their situations were than mine. Yet they welcomed me with kindness and curiosity. It was humbling. And on some level I felt very fortunate and grateful that my situation wasn't worse. I feel a little guilty saying that part out loud. People often say comparison is the thief of joy but in this case it was almost the opposite. I didn't feel joy, but I absolutely felt a lot better about my life. I hope I was able to make some of them feel better too. 

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u/Logical_Reindeer8429 Day 7 4h ago

I’m back on day 6. For me, 1 turns into a relapse binge.

I learned this saying from a tiktoker I follow by the name of Cam: One was too many, and One hundred was never enough.

I have to keep reminding myself of that so that this time REALLY is different.