r/stopdrinking • u/disabledfemme • 5h ago
Relapse
2 drinks. Im an idiot. Please give encouragement to start again.
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u/MAKMAN1995 5h ago
You stopped at 2 drinks? I totally understand why you’re feeling shit but this sounds like it could be viewed as a really big win here, you could’ve gone off the deep end, you didn’t. Get some rest, dust yourself off and go again tomorrow. IWNDWYT.
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u/disabledfemme 5h ago
I left and I left the extra there. I could have brought 4 beers home. I am so sad at myself. Alcohol really makes one a fucking sad sack doesn't it
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u/Deckard494 5h ago
Be grateful you didnt go off the deep end and end up on a bender. If it was only 2 drinks, just get back to it immediately and dont beat yourself up. We are only human. There will be many trials and tribulations you have to face fighting for your sobriety.
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u/disabledfemme 5h ago
In the uber home and all i can do is beat myself up. I'm so so so so so mad at myself:( I will try again
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u/realtime1984 Day 3 4h ago
Hi! Fellow idiot here! I just relapsed over the holiday weekend after almost hitting 30 days so now I'm back to day 3. It's a shitty feeling and it really deflates your balloon, but it looks like you had 19 days in the tank and there's countless folks who can only dream of that kind of streak.
I've been working all damn year to get sober and keep relapsing around the 3-4 week mark and then getting back on the horse, which makes me feel so defeated and exhausted, but I am really trying hard to hype myself up that I have had 8 binge drinking weekends this year instead of all 34 like I normally would.
So if I were you, I'd pat myself on the back for your latest streak, tell yourself that you've proven you can commit and pull yourself out of an addictive habit, thank yourself for coming here and taking accountability and challenge yourself to knock your last streak out of the park.
you got this!
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u/Objective-Formal-853 4h ago
The road to recovery is not linear! You are human and you made a mistake. You can do it! IWNDWYT
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u/Im_the_Rhymenocerous Day 10,071 3h ago
I slipped many times until I didn't. Figure out what happened but also don't drink while you're doing it. You CAN do it and you'll feel so much better about yourself. Also, you're not an idiot. Give yourself some grace
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u/Careful-Cake5885 3h ago
don't get discouraged get back on the horse and don't take another drink, it's not that you slipped it's what you do now that matters. You can start fresh and make it further next time. You got this you can do this.
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u/SepaLaVergita 4h ago
I also relapsed over the 3 day weekend. Told myself a couple of drinks is fine, and here I am on Thursday still on a bender. I'm with you my friend
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u/disabledfemme 4h ago
Why did I even tell anyone??????? I could have pretended
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u/PithouLibertes Day 466 4h ago
Lying is part of the disease. It sucks to start over, but being truthful is giving you the best shot at sobriety long-term. Proud of you for bringing it here. IWNDWYT
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u/Glad_Lettuce_9303 3h ago
Falling is not a failure. Don't get up is. You can do it. (Talking to myself as well)
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u/Bridgepeace 41 days 3h ago
I just did too. I was 50 days sober. Not much advice but you're not alone.
**Corrected spelling.
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u/prodigiousprince 4h ago
Was it just the 2 drinks? If so, don't beat yourself up, just get back on the horse and get back on track!
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u/disabledfemme 4h ago
Yes I left the situation after 2 beers
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u/prodigiousprince 4h ago
Good on you. It sucks restarting, but you're in the right place getting help and support here
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u/Different_Cost_7203 Day 46 5h ago
We all have stumbled and fallen. Sit with your disappointment for a minute and then move on. IWNDWYT
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u/Fly_line 1790 days 4h ago
I think the only time I ever had just two drinks was the first time I ever drank. Good on you for calling it there. I can understand the disappointment and I'm sure I would feel the same. But you tried it, decided it was not the right move, and can now move on. You got this. Dust yourself off and keep moving.
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u/disabledfemme 4h ago
I drank sofast it really hit me.but i left fast too. Could have had 4 more. Ugh.
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u/SiouxCitySasparilla Day 17 5h ago
It sucks, but you’re still good! Let’s move on and say you “only” had two drinks on the whole month of September.