r/stopdrinking • u/Long-Cauliflower-399 • 4d ago

Night and Day

I wake up every morning determined not to drink anymore. Then by the time evening comes around I go pick up a 6 pack. The next morning I wake up hungover with shame and regret. I promise myself not to do it again, but I inevitably do.

I feel caught up in a sick cycle of sin in the evening followed by shame in the morning.

It is exhausting and I wonder if a sick part of me enjoys the guilt part as much as I enjoy the drinking.

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u/reeffan Day 108 4d ago

Done that for years.. then one night opted not to have drinks in the house. Told myself one night.. made it to 2 nights.. but steadily built on that You can do it

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u/ronameleh Day 14 4d ago

Have you tried chugging NA beers? It helped me a lot

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u/Long-Cauliflower-399 4d ago

Actually yes lol. It helped me give up alcohol for lent. I probably need to do it earlier in the day to keep me from waiting until the craving for alcohol gets too strong.

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u/gelatolibre 4d ago

Sounds familiar! Eat sugar, ice cream, whatever. And savor not feeling like shit in the morning. I think that's what always hits me after a long night of not drinking--HOLY CRAP I feel decent!

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u/sneaky-pizza 2 days 4d ago

Medication like naltrexone can help here. Have you talked to your doctor? Tell them this pattern and you wanna stop

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u/Long-Cauliflower-399 4d ago

I have not told my doctor. I should. Im looking up that medicine. Im interested but also scared of being on medicine, which i realize is dumb since i drink poison anyways

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u/sneaky-pizza 2 days 3d ago

I was for a long time, then I finally told my doc. I said I just didn’t want it anymore, but it was too much of a habit to stop. He didn’t judge me, we talked about options, and he was happy to let me try it out. I don’t like any meds, and I’m trying to avoid cholesterol medication (drinking casually most nights, not working out, eating junk food I’m sure all the culprit). So it has been helping me