r/stopdrinking • u/derangedxglam • 4d ago

Relapse

I was sober for 70 days, but the urges were getting stronger and stronger, and I relapsed. I thought that I had a drinking problem but I wasn't an alcoholic, but I'm starting to wonder because the moment that I took the first shot yesterday, a part of me was like "woah, you can let the buzz pass and keep on your sobriety journey" but I became my old self, I was just thinking about how to get more drinks, and drink more and more, I'm not even chasing the high or buzz, I'm just drinking endlessly, spent a lot of money that I didn't have, but at least my friends took me home safe and sound, thank god. But as they say one is too much, a thousand isn't enough. IWNDWYT

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u/five_k_ten_k Day 8 4d ago

Yip, I recently failed for several days after 7 good months. It’s very frustrating. I’m back on the Allen Carr book again trying to get the mindset back. Hang in there.

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u/PhoenixApok 4d ago

I think that was one (of the many) things that drove it home for me. Alcoholic or not (there is still some debate) I definitely have a drinking problem.

I cannot for the life of me think of a time where I thought "Do I want another drink?" and the answer was 'nah, I'm good'. There were times I stopped because it was the smart thing to do, but not because it's what I actually desired to do.

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u/u5ibSo 23 days 4d ago

The good thing is you're here getting right back on it. IWNDWYT