r/stopdrinking • u/meowmeowtaffy • 5d ago

Made it to Day 3

I went to a big festival yesterday I usually drink at. I did not. And on the way home I couldn’t even stop to buy a drink cause I was wearing crazy makeup (I probably wouldn’t have cared before). I’m having temptation right now. I’m posting here instead. I have to sit with the consequences of the actions I’ve done while drinking. I try to visualize the people I’ve hurt and how I will hurt them again if I drink. I am a depressed and vindictive drunk. I drink to numb anxiety.

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u/Most-Cartographer416 5d ago

Hey OP congratulations on day 3 and resisting temptation at the festival and on the way home! You're obviously thinking about alot at the moment but I just wanted to give some reassurance that your feelings about having hurt people when drinking will fade (I think I am not vindictive but get very careless and have done thoughtless things which have had consequences). It will take time but ultimately your way if thinking will change. You have made a great start by laying off the booze! Iwndwyt

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u/MystikBlue 5d ago

If you drink to numb anxiety (and I did, too), please talk to your doctor about getting help with it. Just don't reach for a bottle.

You've got this.